but i know i have to do this bcs i have this severe mental block where i keep telling myself i canโt gain weight until i have my โlowest pointโ officially recorded at the doctor which i know is so stupid but i just canโt get over it
i feel like i have to have a conversation with my mum about how iโve properly chosen recovery now and want to go to a doctor and get a therapist but i just donโt know HOW like what do I even say plus itโs just so hard to bring myself to actually do it and admit iโm struggling -
because doing it would be admitting i actually have an ed when iโve spent so long trying to hide it, and it would mean no going back or iโll just have forced recovery so itโs sososo scary
iโm quite new on recoverytwt so i rllyyyy need more active moots for support and to share cute meal pics with and stuff aaaa please tell me if you want to be moots โบ๏ธ
the people around you will remember your personality more than they will remember how far out your hip bones are. being deep into an ed gives you no personality, itโs hard to have one when all you can think about is food. recovery is possible #recoverytwt
i know it seems like hardly anything but just now was the first time i was about to look up the cals in something I am going to have but actually stopped myself and am going into it blind, scary but a step in the right direction!!! ๐
PLEASE can we make it a thing that that the โslytherin skittlesโ are called the โpanetheonโ instead I just saw an edit calling regulus, barty, evan, pandora and dorcas the pantheon and itโs SO much better stg