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i like turtles

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New goal: become famous in the art industry until it reaches the media

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I just wanted to kickstart my life, since the past years ive been paying off my debt and investing in things that matter.

Grabe yung naging tradeoff talaga and its rlly hard to pursue a dream as an adult. But i hope i can make it

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You know, one of my biggest fears is to see my mother growing old without seeing me pursue the dream she supported with her small salary nung bata pako.

Ewan i just... dont want to also disappoint the people who believes in me that i can do it.

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Sakit lang din to see how the world turned out, on how evil the world has become.

AI has been taking jobs and making it harder for everyone to get one ulit. Heck I applied for 40+ today grabe, its so draining

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I wont kms naman over a job so dont worry, just a lingering thought lang.

Feel ko kasi mas importante napoprovide ko kesa sa existence ko eh idk. Bad thoughts malala

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Alam mong late game suicidal ideation pag iniisip mo na kung gano katagal magiging financially stable mga mahal mo sa buhay sa life insurance mo eh.

I mean it doesn't work that way pero, if it happens. I just hope my mom and daph can have a comfortable life with it.

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Dying would be a merciful end and I can see na even that wont be given to me.

Im at my wit's end na talaga. And the sad part is— its all my fault for being just a person with too much passion for something greater than i am.

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Then AI took over and made it harder for illustrators, Graphic Design got too saturated and competitive.

Never had the chance to get better at illustrating kasi i cant get out of survival mode. Cant compete with GD market because im not good enough to be hirable

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Just born to fail talaga from the start eh

- I thought I could make a living with my passion for illustration. Grew up honing my craft despite being in a lower middle income sa pinas

- Took MMA for practicality and got into Graphic Design kase maganda pa market nun

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I know comparison is the thief of joy pero GODDAMN im depressed some people got it together despite me pushing harder than anyone else for many months just to get a JOB 😭

Ayoko na mag blame game kay Lord, kasalanan ko nalang to for being such a worthless piece of shit

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@zdphn @thrluv Hellyeah

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Crash out moment : Something bad always happens before a crucial transition in my life, tangina talaga

I did my very best to make this day good and ganto ako ipprank ng Panginoon. Why does He always do that, does he get a sick sense of satisfaction to watch people suffer taena

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@zdphn @LandfallGames @bbnomula @ironmouse 1800 !!

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hay ang lungkot, i was really looking forward sana mag talk about art stuff in front of students.

well tbh at least good problem naman to, shows how far ive come in my career kahit side hustle ko lang sya.

still sucks pero i guess shit happens

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ang sakit na gusto ko parin mag draw for a living, i hate the idea that despite everything happened--

i still picked up the pen and make art

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As much as i wanted to accept the idea na never nako magkakaron ng artistic career..

Yet to realize ive already filled the sketchbook i always take for work

Though my mind rejects it, i always find myself drawing during my free hours sa work ko

how miserably ironic of me

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@zdphn @androbaby OMS + CURRY

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@zdphn ako bahala bukas 😉

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@zdphn pls po, end her 3 year streak

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its been 2 years lola, nakagraduate din ako

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