You can be celibate for 2 years, praying to God, and He still wonโt answer you.
A prostitute can make that same prayer point, and God will answer her.
God is not your uncle.
Nobody is going to tell you this, so I will. The confidence you so desperately want to exude will only come from your willingness to do it scared, over and over again, until your fear feels like proof that you're refusing to sit in stagnation.
The older you get, the more you realise being openly gay isnโt just about coming out once. Itโs about deciding, over and over, who gets access to the real version of you.
You are allowed to experience joy while things in your life are unresolved. If you postpone happiness until everything is perfect, youโll be postponing it forever.