~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~

🔞🍔Your Fast Food Workin' Vtuber!🍔🔞 ✿Professional Bartender, spreading positivity with every drink!✿ ART BY: @SmittenEve Stay safe, and be kind ♥ 🇨🇦

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

JUNE 1ST - JUNE 7TH
🥒🍔NEW WEEKLY SCHEDULE🍔🥒
✨BEING YOURSELF✨

🎮DESTINY 2🎮
I know, I know, it's Destiny. Especially with the recent news, but hear me out a sec mmk?
For all the hate I give it, Destiny was there for me. Not just for Pride Month, but pre-transition Destiny 1 was there during my deep depression, kept me out of some trouble too. So I think Destiny is a fitting game for the month of Men Mental Awareness and Pride!
We'll be playing a lot of it during June!

👻FATAL FRAME👻
If Destiny runs into any issues with Internet and such, we'll simply switch to Fatal Frame!

🎉BI-WEEKLY COMMUNITY NIGHT🎉
It's that time again! Come and join me for some fun and games!
Make sure you keep those games like Marvel Rivals and Cheese Rolling updated!

🔊💖ASMR DAYS💖🔊
Come and relax the night away before we start a new week! Let me soothe you a lil~

🔥FANSLY STREAMS🔥
~No fansly this week! Next is June 12th!~

🩵Let's have some fun together~
🩵Stay safe, and be kind~🩵
#Vtubers #VtubersEN #VtubersUprising

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

I just received a contribution towards 2.0 RIGGING (FIRST PART PAID!!) from borkdshlong via Throne. Thank you! https://t.co/BYFsxP7f5f #Wishlist #Throne

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

🔴STREAMING NOW🔴
I really wish they would've added SOMETHING fun to do with our ships at some point, eh?
MORE DESTINY 2

Again if the connection gets really bad, we'll move onto Fatal Frame!
https://t.co/0ncRRzDgIl

#Vtubers #VtubersEN

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

It’s getting hot out there everyone!

Remember to keep cool 🩵~

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

G'morning, happy Wednesday!

Not everyone is going to agree with each other, there’s always going to be people on different sides. Some who like pineapple on pizza, and some who don’t!
While we can all still get along, it’s how you react to these differences between people that decides if we can work together! Cause that reflects in you, especially if you’re not being so kind or even making things up that are not true. Remember, each person is different just like you! So how would you want to be seen?

Stay safe, and be kind~
#PositiveVibes #Vtubers

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

🥒Thanks so much for the stream~🥒
And thanks again for joining me in Destiny 2! Remember, we're gonna be playing this all month, so feel free to join!

Special thanks to @mariapuddingway, @MintyMewVT, and @DylaHeartscale for the awesome raids!

We raided @MintyMoeVT being absolutely cute and silly! Go say hi!~
#Vtubers #VtubersEN

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

🔴STREAMING NOW🔴
Back into the world of Destiny! OPEN TEAMS!

My internet is still being a butt, got me kicked out a few times last night. But I have a hopeful fix coming tomorrow!

Again, if it gets really bad, we'll move onto Fatal Frame!
https://t.co/5iPTEjbLmq

#Vtubers #VtubersEN

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

@failinwithalex That'd be rad as heck!~

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

Y'know those model trends posted by other Vtubers?

Those "post your model and we'll rate it" trends?

The amount of horror stories, even recently with an event, it's ridiculous.

Not saying you shouldn't participate, but I definitely stopped as I've been insulted a few times before.

Just be careful out there hunnies, some of these people do it just to rate their friends and get views, without caring about the people.
Don't take it to heart, cause you probably look fantastic~

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

G'morning, happy Terrific Tuesday!

It's funny how life just turns, eh? Everything could be going so well and then POOF, it hits you with a thing really heavy.
It's easy to tell people that whatever it is, it'll soon pass. It's true, but that doesn't always make it easier to deal with. There's people who think empathy is fake and others who use it as a weapon. However, if we use it right then maybe, just maybe, we can find a way to make those hardships a little softer for each other

Stay safe, and be kind~
#PositiveVibes #Vtubers

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

🥒Thanks so much for the stream~🥒
For all the nonsense and ragging I do, it's honestly still a decent game! Thanks for joining me!
More tomorrow if you want to join my fireteam!

Special thanks to @BeespleaseVT and @BrisketBrisky for the awesome raids!

We raided @HYPAVOX's birthday! Go say hi!!
#Vtubers #VtubersEN

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

🔴STREAMING NOW🔴
Let's get this June started with some Destiny!!
I rag on this game a lot but, honestly it's fitting for my past to play it with a few of what this month represents!

If the Internet isn't friendly, we have Fatal Frame to move on to!
https://t.co/5iPTEjbdwS

#Vtubers #VtubersEN

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

@Colillie_ borgor always gud

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

G'morning, happy Monday!

Thanks for sitting with me while I had my, if you will, glass case of emotions. They really do get the better of you sometimes, don't they?
But it's a new month, new things on the horizons! So whatever you're celebrating or doing this month as June is an eventful time, I hope it goes well for you! And remember that no one can take away your individuality unless YOU let them! Who you are is up to you!

Stay safe, and be kind~
#PositivesVibes #Vtubers

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

Final: It feels like I've suffocated myself, doomed myself. And that the only one who can help me, is myself.

There's no door that leads to new possibilities, there's no opportunities. To quote a song, "I've wasted my days as I've wasted my nights, and I've wasted my youth". Really wish I'd never had gotten involved with those people, drugs and all.

All I can really do though is reflect, and continue. To try and make sure my son doesn't follow in the same path I went.

I know so many people wish they could help, even you reading this might have sent a message or something before. Know that it's appreciated even if I don't acknowledge it, it's just knowing that I have to do it all on my own. I have to, there's no choice and there's no one here but me.

Streaming these last 10 years has been a fun road, it's something I enjoy simply by talking to all of you. But as things get worse, my health, my life, and I sit here waiting on a response for government housing since that's all I can get...it was only a matter of time before the cracks began to pour in.

I see so much potential in all of you. Please don't be like me, go for it. Go for partner, those sponsors, that school or career. You're never too old for it, just don't screw it up like I did.
I'll be here watching you make it through, and accomplish what you want. Just like I've done for others in this scene who've left for bigger things.

Tomorrow I'll go back to streaming like normal, posting like everything is okay. Because that's all I can do.

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

6. One more after this. It's just that especially nowadays, money is such a touchy subject. It's not something people really like to talk about.

As a content creator, we're expected to push these things. Merch, sponsors, support. I even have two things right now on Throne and Kofi for help. But I've never been good at pushing those, it always felt weird and in bad taste.

So what do you do when the environment you're in expects you to behave in a way that feels wrong? Well, you can do what I do, and then get no results in the many things you want to do because you can't bring yourself to push these things.

Maybe I'm just stubborn, but I've always tried to do things myself. My friends can even tell you how painful it is for them when they see me struggling, and I refuse help before finally giving in.

Cause if I'm struggling, who knows how someone else may be struggling too. I can't expect that of them.

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

5. We all want to make something of ourselves, in some sort of fashion.

One of the things I had hoped with my heart condition, knowing that it's a ticking timebomb, is that I could leave some sort of impact behind. Something positive, even if my name wasn't tied to it and no one knew it was me, something that could help people.

I realize how naïve that sounds, how unrealistic it may be. I've learned after many hard and unfortunate lessons that we can't make everyone happy, and trying to usually causes more problems.

But is it wrong to want to do something like that? Is it self-centered? At the end of the day, it's just nice to know that you made someone smile.

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

4. I've been recommended to take a break. Usually that's what's suggested when people are having issues of any sort.
Normally though, that helps with burnout or remediable life issues.

But I'm not experiencing burnout, rather there lack of. My content has been struggling due to scheduling, and outside content I can barely upload once a week.
Not only that, my heart condition, housing problem, these things can't be fixed in say a week or month.

Even with a plethora of issues, work still needs to be done.
So will a break truly achieve anything, or will it remind me that I have very little time to myself as I continue with my day job and responsibilities?

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

3. Three people have already left my workplace in the last couple of weeks, after succeeding in pushing them out.
My work is doing the same to me, doing every disciplinary action and workload without firing me so that they don't have to pay me out.

It's obvious to everyone there that the company is being liquidated, to be sold, which is why they're doing it to myself and others. But I have to take everything they do to me until I can find a better job. I have a child, can't just drop it all.

But if I could stream and do content, and make a reasonable amount per month, I would. I would drop everything right now.

Everything I need to do content-wise, from timing and uploading to community engagement, to so much more...I could do if I had the time.
I know how to do it, that's why I was growing years ago when I was on disability from my heart condition at it's worst.

I can't tell you how demoralizing it is to know what to do and how to do it, but to stand outside the window and not be able to.
All while you make new friends every few years, just to watch them pass you by.

[~CrunchyyPickle 🥒🩵~ @CrunchyPickleVT]

2. There's a lot of self realization that's been occurring the last lengthy while.

When people say that they'll miss me, I wonder if some truly do. Or if they'll simply miss what I provide. Even when I've shared dark and concerning moments, many that listen wait for me to finish so that they can begin raising THEIR own concerns.

While it's easy to say that I'm not important in the sea of billions of people, it can make someone feel minuscule even in their own corner.

But that's the cost of being an entertainer, we can't always choose who comes to the show, even if some people believe they can. Still, it makes me question whether anything I've ever done has any meaning.