Some of your parents are merely vessels for you to come through. Thats it. That was the contract. They were never meant to nurture you-they never had the capacity. They were never meant to love you- emotionally they never had the capacity. They were never meant to build you up- You were destined to surpass and overpower them. You are a child of the most high- not these humans.
repeat after me:
dear universe, i'm not asking for small favors this time. i am asking for the unthinkable to finally line up. may this month rearrange what i thought was impossible, turn endings into new beginnings, and remind me that miracles exist for people like me.
Let's normalize telling people, 'It seems you don't have the capacity to love me in the ways I want and need, so let's not continue this, and leave it at that.
im going to be babied & taken cared of gently for the rest of my life because in my childhood i had to grow up fast & was treated roughly
i didn’t get the chance to experience deep gentle love. thats whats owed to me. thats my karma
God wants you to read this verse: Job 22:28
"You will succeed in everything you decide to do, and the light will shine on the road ahead." You will cry, not because someone has hurt you, but because God has answered your prayers.
This is what a non-transactional relationship looks like.
1. You go on dates, the man pays for it.
2. She visits him, she pays for her transport.
3. On their special dates, they gift each other whatever they can afford without comparing or competing with each other.
4. She pays for her hair, airtime, rent, etc, and he does the same.
5. If they're cohabiting, she brings and he brings, but he pays for the rent. And the bringing doesn't have to be equal.
6. If they're serious, she continues to look for ways to invest in him, while he continues to look for ways to invest in the future of both of them.
7. If she's in genuine financial needs, he can offer to help as much as possible if he can.
8. Once in a while, he can decide to give her money randomly. Especially when she does something he's proud of.
9. He's not responsible for her siblings or parents' financial needs or wants.
10. Sex is never weaponised or commercialised. It happens because both of are adults and you enjoy pleasing each other sexually.
11. You genuinely care for each other, and would still continue to care for each other, even when sex has not been involved for a while.
12. If the woman "loans" him money, he has to pay back. And if he "loans" her money, she doesn't necessarily have to pay back or pay all.
End.