My hope for you... May you quit overthinking. May you stop replaying failed scenarios. May you stop feeding self-doubt. May you be able to see some good in everyone and everything.
You have to stop thinking you'll be stuck in your situation forever. We feel like our heart will never heal or we'll never get out of this impossible struggle. Don't confuse a season for a lifetime. Even your trials have an expiration date. You will grow, life will change...