i am disgusting

17. PTSD. Bipolar. Suicidal. Depression. Social Anxiety. I don't bother making friends. I end up losing them anyway. ED. Account for ranting and artwork.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

The silence kills me.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

It is a constant struggle. Should I talk to her because I can't take this silence anymore but get hurt even more?

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

Everything is my fault.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I keep telling my self it is not your fault. I can never believe it.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I keep telling myself that you shouldn't beat yourself up when its not your fault they never came back.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I just can't take this emptiness anymore.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

Is there anyone out there that cares?

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I wish she would realize that she's my only friend.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I need someone to be there for me even when I start to do things wrong.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I need someone to want me.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I just want a friend that wants me.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I bet if I don't even text you at all this break... you won't text me.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

It might just be me. But I don't think you want me to be friends.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

Just kill me fucking now. I'm tired. A bit sick and terribly depressed. Yet I have to go to school although it might make me relapse.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

To my former friends....

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

Before you leave...

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

They'd be happy if I was dead.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I just want to make everyone happy.

[i am disgusting @DamagedBroken]

I'm a big fucking burden for everyone.