BPD, Full time simp ๐๐๐ฅบ, Poly and Demi. He/Him, 33, Aussie boi, ENFP personality type, CPTSD, EDNOS, ADHD Psychosis. Depression + anxiety come standard
All the time... can't help secretly falling for someone in the morning then going through the imaginary breakup after the sun goes down... rinse, repeat ๐ฅฒ #bpd#eupd
BPD has me craving attention as badly as any addiction I've ever had rn. So imma use my learnt skills to redirect my simp energy into working out and doubling down on my diet ๐ฅฒ maybe if I do that I'll be rewarded hahaha...now just gotta not stroke my EDs ego in the process ig ๐คทโโ๏ธ
Intrusive thoughts are so wild! The rush I get from even thinking about sh or kms is scary. If I let even one of those thoughts play out, then I wouldn't make it to tomorrow. Yet these thoughts hit me every few minutes and I use so much energy just to reject and manage them. ๐ฅฒ
It's 4:30am and I feel like I need to reach out to even just chat, but I'm so worn out that I don't have the energy to hold a conversation. So this will have to do. I managed to have 3 days of no kms vibes but they are back. At least this feels more normal.
@Sad_Sparrow7 Makes sense to me. And I think that NTs that are the best equipped have been through university and learnt everything they can, so they can try to understand us. But I don't think anyone could fully understand, no matter how much training and experience they have...