Honestly I wish I was brave enough to talk to people at this event. But I feel like I'm not femme enough and too old and everyone will perceive me as a creep.
It's one of those days where I feel like a monster. Tried to shave and cut the shit out of my face, still considering going out tonight but my confidence is kind of in shambles right now.
Honestly I think I would feel so much better if I didn't have any responsibilities anymore.
Just wanna be someone's puppy. Told what to do, where to be and how to act instead of pretending that I know anything.
I feel more comfortable sharing these thoughts on this account because it feels a bit more like screaming into the void.
I don't want people to worry about me. I don't want to be a burden or drive people away.