It makes me cry often, and whenever she sees it and I don't wanna talk about it (because I literally feel ashamed of myself), she makes herself the victim: "oh I'm the bad guy now?" She also calls me stinky because MY SISTER'S bedroom (we share a bedroom,
As I said tho I am scared of not doing it, sometimes it's so stupidly hard to stay on the right path and I fail, then it all goes to shit, like everything and I get this feeling of "well now it's pointless".