Having standards doesn't make you dificult.
Knowing what you will tolerate and what you won't is part of self-respect.
The Alpha Bible explores confidence, boundaries, relationships, attraction, and the mindset every man should develop.
I do not think this is the time to rely completely on your 9 to 5.
Keep your job, do it well, but build something for yourself on the side too.
A skill. A business. A product. An audience. Another source of income as a fall back plan.
If you canโt keep up, find people walking that path and befriend them. Donโt do it alone it will be so easy for you to find befitting excuse.