Your environment is quietly shaping your future.
The conversation you entertain, the content you consume, and the people you spend time with are influencing your thinking more than you realize.
Choose your environment carefully.
Iβve never started a year with this much smoking weedβ¦
Been consistent since the 1st and my tolerance is probably filing taxes separately at this point ππ
Anybody else out here treating January 1st like a lifestyle?
But who exactly wants to compete π§ββοΈππ€
Let's talk about initiation.
Not just initiating SEX. Initiating ANYTHING in relationships when you have ADHD or AUTISM.
Initiating a difficult conversation. Initiating plans. Initiating affection. Initiating repair after a fight.
Because there's this assumption that if you don't initiate, you don't care.
And that assumption is destroying our relationships and our connections to other people.
I care SO MUCH. I think about initiating ALL THE TIME. I have entire scripts written in my head about what I want to say or do and how I want to show up for my partner and connect with them and be present.
But somewhere between my brain and my body there's this MASSIVE GAP. Executive dysfunction means I can want something desperately and still not be able to make myself DO it. I can know exactly what needs to happen and still feel completely paralyzed about starting it.
Autistic inertia means once I'm in one state or activity, switching to another state or activity sometimes feels impossible. Even when I WANT to switch. Even when the thing I'm switching TO is something I genuinely desire.
And then there's the fear.
The fear of doing it wrong. The fear of being rejected. The fear of misreading the situation.
The fear that I'll start something and then not be able to finish it or I'll get overwhelmed halfway through or my brain will go
Sometimes the real self-respect is letting ppl walk. If they wanna leave,just let em! Yall should stop holding on to pple who clearly want u to let them go.