Discipline yourself to prayer. Discipline yourself to the systematic reading of Scripture from Genesis to Revelation over and over and over again. Discipline yourself in your speech. Discipline yourself in the company you keep. Discipline yourself in when you go to bed and when you rise up. This is a war. Discipline yourself!
I am not a good person. You are not a good person. We lie. We are selfish. We covet. We worry. We hate. We steal. We lust. The only one who is good, is God.
I might get canceled for saying this...
But eternity is a whole lot longer than the few years we spend on earth.
One day every knee will bow.
Every tongue will confess.
And every excuse will run out.
Jesus Christ is Lord.
Think about that.
Atheists have no basis to complain about suffering, and no basis to claim it's a bad thing. Nor a basis for calling anything "evil". You claim we came from death and suffering. It's just a part of life, and we are just animals from a random nothing.