Moots, earlier last night I told my boyfriend that intent doesnt change outcome, because when hes angry he lashes out and takes it out on me, despite being insistent that he isnt angry at me.
He just parroted it back to me because I made a contradictory correlation --
Like. Am I actually the problem here?? Apparently I do this often but either im just making conversation or just casually observing that he might be wrong on something (ex: i called something a guitar pick and he said it was a scraping tool. It turned out to actually b a pick.)
I dont know if im more obsessed with numbers or appearance.
I want to look sickly, but watching the numbers go down is like an addiction. I would weigh myself multiple times a day if i had free access to the house scale.
I wish I was a honey bee. I wish my words were barbed, so they yanked and pulled as they struggled to leave my body. I wish I could die the moment my tongue stings.