Britney Spears - Instagram Post (08/27/2026) - I actually miss the way I respected people so much that there was a genuine mystery of acute oneness when we were together, which was sacred. I feel like, still to this day, people don’t realize the real damage that was done to my heart and soul in the conservatorship. But it’s bizarre. I was painfully shy, but I got to be someone different on stage. After having kids, though, I think that game was beyond overdone. I felt so silly and embarrassed. I think it’s easier when you’re younger to go there. Anyways, this video is actually crazy ’cause it’s identical to the “Gimme More” video, but done with a version of me with 6-year-old legs and looking way younger. Crazy. I’ve been single for so long, and I haven’t really shown my body except one time in my green bathing suit. You can see here I’m actually extremely short. For some reason in paparazzi pics and in my living room, I seem to have very long legs. Maybe an illusion… the front of my house is the show stage!!!!! Yet backstage I look quite a bit different.
I remember when I first came to LA, I always felt like the youngest and shortest person in the room. Then I met Shakira and she was exactly my size. We were honestly twins 👯♀️ It was insane. Even more so than Christina, who is actually shorter than me. I remember meeting Shakira for her “Whenever, Wherever” video. She had all these cool braids and colors in her hair, and I had just woken up from a nap going there in the car, and she had just woken up from a nap in her trailer. Either way, I finally felt normal.
Britney Spears - Instagram Post (08/27/2026) - My girlfriend was like, “Why are you wearing a rock ’n’ roll bra? That’s not like you at all.” And she’s right. It’s so not something I would wear for a bra at all whatsoever, although as a performer, I did every night for “I Love Rock ’n’ Roll.”
Let’s just say I’ve actually changed big time. I honestly can’t believe I used to be able to perform in front of so many people. Good lord. I’m so sensitive and proud of myself for shutting all that down, ’cause for too many years it was forced. When I used to work with Felicia in my beginning days, I would get asthma and start shaking if I had to meet more than 10 people in a meet and greet. She could see in my eyes how scared I would get. My dad had me meeting 70 people, I think, during that time. I lost the sensitivity of my soul. And it literally hurt. I felt like a robot.
I think during that time I lost a sacredness I used to have with people because I was secretly very sensitive and painfully shy. I miss my real relationship I used to have with people. Honestly, I felt like a robot, a machine. And thank the lord it’s over.