The frustration is very overwhelming. There’s a lot of sadness that this is my life. But I need acceptance. I can’t wish for a different life that won’t change anything. I just need to love myself and take care of myself and be brave. I deserve everything I want
It’s not fair that my family makes me feel anxious and as if I’m doing something wrong just because I want to go out and see my friends on a Tuesday. But you know what, I’m going anyway. It sucks but theres nothing I can do except keep living and keep doing what I want
I just can’t handle the fact that someone actually liked me a lot and I had to ruin it. I could’ve had the chance to experience romance and all those things. But I also know it would be fucked because I don’t feel the same way no matter how much I wish I did.
I would be a horrible person for her and it’s truly so much better for her and her happiness that she’s found someone new. Who is certain and emotionally and physically available. And isn’t over complicated
Ended things with someone and now I regret it even though I have no right to. And I know it’s best that it’s over now. Just feeling jealous that she’s moved on and scared that I made a big mistake and I’m just self sabotaging, and I could’ve had something really good
It never would’ve worked. This is for the better. I always felt a bit uncertain about my feelings and that’s way too unfair for her. I could never have sex with her either because I hate my body and I’d feel so much guilt afterwards.