I don’t want kids cuz one of my worst fears is becoming the type of mother who compares her intake with a literal child or uses their clothing to body check tho ik I don’t have it in me to act like that
Lately I’ve been treating my cal limit like a bank account. It rlly helps me feel in control to set a weekly “budget” ex: if I have a budget of $3500 I don’t necessarily have to eat 500c per day it’s so flexible and freeing
the funniest part about this conversation is the "nobody cares about you" argument as if we don't see viral pictures and videos making fun of strangers minding their business every day. we live in a surveillance state and that definitely will contribute to anxiety lol
does anyone else feel like they’re dirty when they eat? like i don’t know what it is, but i feel much more cleaner when i’m starving. like when i eat, i get obsessive and feel the urge to clean myself out (purge) even though i promised myself i’d never purge (still haven’t ever.)