If marriage is a reward for staying silent while your man does the absolute worst to you, then you can keep it, lol. More often than not, when men say you’re “peaceful,” it just means you’ve been tolerating their nonsense. Lol
You can’t truly care for your infant child whilst hurting his mother. A baby relies so much on its mother, so much so that the wellbeing of the mother, mentally and physically, has a direct impact on the baby. So if you really care for your baby, you would never hurt its mother