@rickygervais Ricky, I can relate to After Life far too well. My wife died and if I had heroin right now I would end it all. Life without my girl is pointless. I don't want to live without her. I watched her die suddenly and that image won't leave mind. I'm nothing without her
@DannyCo89172455@rickygervais I used to be a lightweight, but now it literally takes a litre and a half before I even feel tipsy. Already been told I have the start of cirrhosis.. The doctor seemed genuinely bewildered as I was probably the first patient he'd seen that said "Thank fuck for that" :)
@DannyCo89172455@rickygervais Used to be whisky but now it's vodka. Whisky you drink because you enjoy it, vodka you drink because to hate yourself, as they say. 2 litres plus a day, straight from the bottle.
@DannyCo89172455@rickygervais I'm already an alcoholic now. Didn't drink much at all before she died, but haven't stopped since. Breakfast, lunch, dinner and every other hour round the clock.
@DannyCo89172455@rickygervais My life is already an absolute misery. There is nothing anyone or anything can do to make things any worse than they already are. The worst thing that could have ever happened to me has already happened.
@DannyCo89172455@rickygervais As I've been saying a lot of late: Time is not a healer, it's a thief. Every day that goes by is one more without her. Her name was JJ. She was 31. Her death was sudden and unexpected. One minute she was here, the next I was having to perform CPR for the first time in my life.
@Rachel97687043@rickygervais I know he played a character. I know he didn't experience it, I guess my drunken mind was just in awe of how well he grasped what we go through when something so traumatic happens to us. That's why I wanted to talk to him about it. Thanks so much for your kind words xx
I am overwhelmed by the amount of people commenting such kind words. I didn't even expect @RickyGervais to see this post, or anybody else. Thank you all so much. I am broken. She was only 31, and she was my universe. Again, thanks so much, all of you. ❤️