@drkldykay Fingers crossed I land a good deal and someone ships out here. Quarantine will go on for a long while and a possible Martial Law can happen soon so I can't deal with the stress without one...
I don't know if I hit my limit with being in the reylo fandom at this point. It's been more than a year of me pushing my art out there and I just don't feel like I should keep doing it. I feel so tired working on stuff and it doesn't get noticed.
My works never really hit past 800 and for doing this for so long I just don't know. Stagnating numbers and getting passed over better artists just never bode well with me. Maybe I'm just not doing content anyone wants to see. It used to be something I do for fun. But now..
Over-stanning actors is not a personality trait. Over woobifying actors is not cute. Over analyzing an actors (private) relationship and family life is not right.
Sometimes this place goes way too far.
So many people are having active sex lives and I'm jealous I really am. I draw porn for fun. I read smut to keep me warm. I'm so alone and will remain alone for the rest of my days. No one would want to lay a finger in me because I'm ugly.
I'm almost 6 years away from being 30 and the fact that I might reach that age being unattractive and a virgin scares me. I might as well just stop trying to take care of myself at that point. I'm going to be past my prime, and just a rag on the floor.
Don’t kill me but I am soo mad about everything in @starwars Rise of Skywalker. Why did she just steal his name?!? Why did the story get told Soo quickly... the nostalgic parts wer to many.. if she finally becomes Jedi why bury he sabers... I get it was symbolic but come one.