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I’m the E3 2006 of people. Any pronouns. Avi by me.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

One fun thing about this emotional hurricane I've been going through is I've been making my boomer dad listen to it all in extreme detail and making him respond to me. He probably also agrees with the cinder block idea by now.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Anyway I need an actual wingman. Not someone who says it then never does anything. Someone talk me up. Someone ease nerves. Someone tie a cinder block around my neck and push me out of a boat at sea.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

God, there it fucking is again. Hope is creeping up my neck. I need to kill hope. Bury it. Any and all hope. It's a drug that makes everything seem good and a day later I'm sobbing again. Hope must die.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Fuuuuuck I forgot to put my clothes in the dryer and it's gonna need a cycle and a half and I gotta be up in like 5 hours

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

This game looks so cute but I have this condition called "no friends".

[Wario64 @Wario64]

Orbitals (Switch 2) preorder is $39.88 at Walmart ($10 off MSRP) https://t.co/ehZW8jI2GW

Amazon ($49.99) https://t.co/1kszSxN5pH #ad

Amazon will likely match price and adjust orders later

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

I keep telling myself I won't play Switch Sports Resort. I just like the Gurihiru art.

[Nintendeal @Nintendeal]

$10 off Switch 2 physical release pre-orders on Amazon right now: https://t.co/4SaVQJrvJ9 #ad

Prices go back up to full price on release day so lock them in now!

Also at Walmart: https://t.co/k384NNsqnF

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

@Nintendeal @VGSquirrel this is like a dollar and some change better than my work discounts.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Two days of almost no contact, seemingly like she's avoiding me, and today she asks how I am and later shows me a weird toy she found on the ground. I. Am. Losing. My. Mind. I almost crashed out. What is wrong with her!?

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Sigh. My dad threw out my dunkin coffee bucket and an unopened bottle of Ricky's hot sauce. I told him to clean and toss out whatever but I didn't think he'd throw away an unopened bottle of brand new hot sauce

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

I had a pretty big emotional break down driving home from work tonight. I think i feel better after it.

I do wish I knew how to be stronger. I keep letting myself slip. I wish I had more self-respect.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Hey @Ask_Spectrum why do i keep getting phone calls to set up my Xumo boxes? I'll do it when I feel like it. Look at my tweets. I'm kinda dealing with something and not really in the mood to hook these things up and catch up on The Boys.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

I'm just not going to reply. And I suspect she doesn't really care if I do or not. I'm so fucking heartbroken over all this.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

We finally texted again and her half of the conversation is so cold and short. Why not just tell me to go away? You said we're cool. You said you wanted to be friends. You said I could text you. Why? Why torture me like this? Just fucking tell me. I need to save myself.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Why do i want the Deluxe w/ doll? I have never had any affection for Barbie. But I kinda want this collection.

[Wario64 @Wario64]

Barbie Rewind (Switch/PS5) Standard up for preorder at Best Buy ($29.99), Switdh Deluxe with exclusive doll $59.99 https://t.co/VoopZ1JRth #ad

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Also, my first therapy appointment is Monday but I don't expect much. I was told it's mostly introductions and such. It'll be like 3 or so before I'm talking about things (anxiety/depression/possible ocd/attachment issues/adhd)

Reading that, it would be easier to put me down

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Personal update: These past 2 weeks have sucked but I think everything with her has mostly evened out. I'm trying to keep things normal and repair the friendship and take it slow. I'm feeling a lot better today.

I hate that I let another person affect me this much.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

Hey I own that Barbie Horse Adventure game on GBA.

[Wario64 @Wario64]

Barbie Rewind announced by Digital Eclipse, includes 16 classic Barbie video games and DreamHouse decoration https://t.co/VVMGtwAV56

Trailer: https://t.co/lhTFi50AkC

out for PS5/PS4/Switch/Switch 2/Xbox/Steam - Nov 12

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

I saw TADC movie today and I really enjoyed the way it ended. I know the Fandom killed it for Gooseworx but TADC was something pretty special.

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

If i took a One Wish Willow and wished for more confidence what would happen?

[endy¼ @Dynamus_Lives]

If i didn't mention it, Masters of the Universe was fun. I read somewhere Leto hated filming it so watch it knowing he's unhappy