HEIDI

[yeno @cortisrecords]

THE BIG 3 — #JAMES #제임스

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

@GSCinemas kenapa kat apps gsc still takde showtime untuk obsession 😿

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

they dont see how i cry every time i hear his fav bands or gg on social media bcs it brings everything back abt him in my mind. they dont see how i still get hurt seeing places around my house area bcs thats where i met him a few times

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

when people say i look fine now but they dont see how im still affected till now. its just that i dont talk abt it publicly anymore

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

they dont see how i hv to keep his chat locked but i still end up seeing his profile bcs he views my status every time i post smtg. n paling bodo, i still dont hv the courage to block him

[smokeybear🧸 @_bitterbaby]

I’m so embarrassed by all the pathetic and desperate shit I’ve done in an attempt to feel loved, and I’m more embarrassed that nothing has ever worked.

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

funny how u always think everyones copying u but somehow u never realise how much u copy me hahaha

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

i wanna b friends w wirda from chic code so bad omg

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

fuck i hate u sm. pls do not contact w me anymore cs i cant bare going thru this dah. rasa nak bunuh diri sial sumpah

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

delete my fucking address delete my fucking contact DELETE EVERYTHING DELETE ALL MY VIDEONOTES THAT U STARRED. im literally crying the fuck out rn cs i fucking hate u for even making me believe u miss me n that u really loved me

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

BUANG JELA BAG BODOH TU, TAKPAYAH NAK INGAT AKU SANGAT DAH U FUCKING HATE ME KAN, SANGGUP BUAT CAMNI. I FUCKING HATE U SO MUCH

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

i wish i never met u at the first place. i wish i never knew u. dont ever contact me again. dont fucking stalk me again. i fucking hate u with all my heart. I HATE YOU SO MUCH

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

u dont deserve any love. i hate u sm, i fucking hate u. ure even worse than any guy i met before. i fucking hate u. i hope u will think abt what u did to me whenever ure happy w someone else one day. ure so fucking mean i hate u.

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

so? @/z puas tak. puas tak dapat buat camni kat i? puas tak dapat play w my feelings macam mana u kena ngan orang lain dulu? sedangkan i betul betul loved u & u sanggup buat i camni. ke nak tunggu i bunuh diri dulu baru u puas hati?

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

n then u came back n untuk apa sial actually? u dont understand how badly u fucked things up for me. for months i cried over u. for months i woke up thinking abt u. for months i kept wondering how u were doing even after everything u did to me. jahat weh sumpah

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

u shudve never broken no contact that day ya allah i was finally learning how to live w/o u. it wasnt easy but i was doing it 😭

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

and im so fucking angry cs why did it hv to be me? why did u choose me to mess with????why did u choose me to make promises to?why did u choose me to come back to when u knew exactly how much i loved u?

[HEIDI @EIZALEIA]

"kalau la u jumpa i before i kena semua ni"

eh just bcs someone hurt u b4 doesnt mean u get to do the same thing to other ppl??? AKU PUN KENA TERUK BEFORE NI, ADA AKU BUAT BALIK KE KAT KAU. AKU LAYAN LAGI ELOK, BETTER THAN I DID TO SOMEONE ELSE BEFORE NI.