͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ

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⠀ ⠀𝐘𝐨𝐮⠀𝐠𝐨𝐭⠀𝐢𝐭, ⠀ＡＬＬ ＦＯＲ ＯＮＥ.ᐣ.ᐟ

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[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀𝐈’𝐦 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫⠀ＥＮＯＵＧＨ
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮⠀𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙⠀𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐥𝐥 ⠀𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰. . .

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

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⠀ ⠀𝗬𝗼𝘂’𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿⠀𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐒⠀𝗔𝗻𝗱
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲⠀𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚⠀
⠀ ⠀𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆⠀ＱＵＥＳＴＩＯＮＳ
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[ᴬᶜᵉʳᵛᵒ ϐׁƙׁׅժׁׅ݊ƙׁׅ @acervobkdk]

amo tanto os bkdk acho q em outra vida eu fui o todoroki

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—telling me..that…this all was..because of me?..

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

( katsuki certainly did *not expect that answer.

from all the different reasons eijiro could have given him, his death was not one that he had ever considered to be a possibility. sure, many people had been affected by it—duh, all his friends and teachers saw it happening—but

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

( eijiro exhales, alcohol thick on his breath. there were so many things he could say; the whole long descent into darkness he'd confessed to for the first time just a few days ago. his guilt. the vices. the sick ways he'd coped.

even his fucking convoluted moral code.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

he’d never expect it to cause..this. )

—— ..my…y-you-…eijiro—

( he had to take a moment. a small breath, gather his thoughts, keep himself together. because *that, right there, just made his chest ache. and not in a “my heart is giving me bullshit” way. )

—— ..you’re—

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

@redriotin / you’re the worst /silly

I am holding myself back I’m so not normal about blood riot. clawing at the walls of my enclosure

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

@redriotin / I love them☹️☹️☹️

BUT WHAT THE FUCK WHY WOULD YOU SHOOT ME 57 TIMES AND THEN THROW A BRICK AT MY DEAD BODY. WHY💔💔💔💔

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

/ what the fuck dude.

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

but the answer came down to one thing. not even several hundred thousand.

one.

man. )

if all for one had been killed instead of imprisoned . . ( he breathes, ruby locked with scarlet. ) . . you would never have died.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—in a “you NEED to explain yourself to me” way, just…I want to understand. That’s all I want. And if you don’t want to tell me either, it’s fine.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—— Nah. Not that either. No negative feelings, honestly..

( he places his glass down again, staring at it for a bit longer before he looks up at kirishima. there’s not a single trace of a lie in his eyes, he’s..surprisingly calm about all this. )

—— Can I just ask why? Not—

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

disappointed?

( that's the next guess, a trace of disbelief creeping into his voice. this is possibly even more terrifying than all the conversations about this he'd had previously. voice is more hushed when he talks again, the music nearly drowning him out. )

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—not a loud, exaggerated laugh. just something small, yet something that sounded so..sincere. )

—— Nah…’m not mad..at all.

( he shrugs, taking a sip of his drink. )

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—— Mad?

( he pretends to think about it. the bartender places a glass in front of him and katsuki thanks him with a nod. he picks up the glass and stares at the ice cubes as they float, for a little while he doesn’t say anything.. )

( ..until he lets out a laugh. it’s—

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

nah. just a shit day into a shit week into a shit month into a shit year into a shit career. y'got nothing to do with it.

( ah but that pout. it eases his tension somewhat, and causes him to loosen up more than alcohol already had. )

yer mad about blood riot too, yeah?

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

..the worst things always happen to those that don’t deserve it…

you’re not a bad person and I doubt you ever were.

[˗ˏˋ ❅⋆ 𝙄𝘾𝙔𝙃𝙊𝙏 ⋆❅ˎˊ˗ @calidumfrigus]

... mmn.

perhaps i was a really bad person in my past lives for things to continue to happen to me.

-he sighs, nuzzling katsuki gently. he just.. wants some peace. happiness.-

.. when do i get to be happy?

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

yeah…I imagine..

( he leans in more, resting his head on shouto’s shoulder. )

..I’m sorry you have to deal with this again…

[˗ˏˋ ❅⋆ 𝙄𝘾𝙔𝙃𝙊𝙏 ⋆❅ˎˊ˗ @calidumfrigus]

i know. i know.

-he shrugs a little, eyes downcast.-

.. it just hurts. i've spoken to someone in a similar situation, said all i could say.. and it changed nothing, i am still angry. still hurt. still upset.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—angry, you’d have greeted me way more enthusiastically. I’ll do that next time.

( he folds his arms over his chest, a sly pout forming on his lips. )

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—— Hello to you too, geez.

( he rolls his eyes, turning to the bartender and asking for a drink for himself. as surprising as that’d sound, katsuki wasn’t there to fight or argue, he just..wanted to talk. maybe catch up. or whatever. )

—— If I had come here all loud and—

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

( in all honesty, everything the man katsuki leans in front of had been saying for the last fucking * hour had gone in one ear and right out the other. eijiro * knows the dude is trying to pick him up, but even at his lowest the redhead would never cheat.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

we don’t have to talk about it here. or now. or today. I’m just saying this so you know you have someone you can talk to *if you ever want to.

( he offers him a small smile. )

[˗ˏˋ ❅⋆ 𝙄𝘾𝙔𝙃𝙊𝙏 ⋆❅ˎˊ˗ @calidumfrigus]

it already weighs me down.
i know you want to help, i do..

but the details are.. not good.

knowing them creates accomplices and discussing any of it out here? that will.. just make it worse. anyone could hear. no. i cannot discuss it. —

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—want you to let it weigh you down.

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

we’ve endured way too much. ‘sides, I won’t die just because I helped you.

( he shakes his head. )

you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. but I do hope you know you don’t have to bottle everything up. I’m offering to help because I care and because I don’t—

[˗ˏˋ ❅⋆ 𝙄𝘾𝙔𝙃𝙊𝙏 ⋆❅ˎˊ˗ @calidumfrigus]

.. no. i can't do that to you. you have endured enough, katsuki.

i'll manage.
talking about it will only make me angrier.

-still, he leans into him a bit too.-

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

—considering whether to approach him or not for the past half hour. )

( in the end..he got up and approached the other man, leaning beside him with a tilt of his head. )

—— You look bored.

( he didn’t give much of a fuck about interrupting the conversation, honestly. )

[͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏͏ ͏𝐈’𝐌 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 .ᐟ @EMBERS0FVICTORY]

( katsuki knew he probably shouldn’t be there. he should have finished his patrol, gathered his stuff and then went immediately back home. but he had stopped at a random dive bar to get something to eat (and maybe have some alcohol), saw eijiro from where he sat and had been—

[٥ ᅠ ᅠ𝙊𝙉𝙄 ｡ @redriotin]

( sat at a dive bar, on his fifth drink. staring blankly at a neon sign while some guy chatters his ear off about a tabletop game. eijiro nods every now and then and murmurs an ' uh huh. yeah. ' )