I've been thinking of a major goal as the finish line.
Today I realized: it's just a checkpoint.
I see a line running toward it, and then straight through it and beyond.
When the destination is merely a marker of the direction you’re heading, it means you’re getting closer.
Lost something today that made the day job bearable.
I’m gutted.
Good managers are rare, and workplace friends are rarer.
Some days the reason you're building something of your own isn't inspiration.
It's just this.
Standing desk. Lofi playing. Cat snoozing behind me.
Day job on one screen. Future on the other (bookkeeping training materials).
This is what the middle looks like for me…
This is double entry.
It's not glamorous, just mine.
I wasn't ready to start bookkeeping independently. I started anyway.
I was ready to make mistakes, ready to learn, and excited to help people.
The knowledge that I can actually do this well is only emerging now.
Not before I started, but BECAUSE I started.
Another thing to expect, when working your way from 9-to-5ery to independent, meaningful work:
The 9-to-5 will begin to remind you daily, of all the reasons you won’t miss it.
Yuck…
This is where I am. Day one of being visible.
I have a payroll job I do from home, I'm studying for a bookkeeping certification I don't have yet.
And, I'm writing in public before I'm ready.
Because waiting until I'm ready is exactly how people run out of time.
@ItsKieranDrew After seeing you and everyone this weekend, I am inspired to write everyday.
Question is on what, and where...but in lieu of answers, I'm just doing it.
Start dirty, start scared. Just start.
Grateful tonight for music.
The stuff that lifts me on angel wings when nothing else seems to be able to pull me out of a funk.
Also grateful for continued faith.
In myself.
Sometimes it sucks, being able to see through your brain and its serotonin cravings.
When I can’t decide between macaroni and cheese, a Jack and Coke, what movie to watch or game to play, or person to call…
It’s time to sit in silence, and drink water, and breathe.
Just breathe.