not okay.

Its not about you, its about me! 5'5 CW: 126 GW1: 120GW2: 115GW3: 110UW: 105

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Am I recovered? I don't know.

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Right so now I'm afraid to weigh myself. I think I'll hate myself sooo much after I know how much I've gained

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And guess what I gained 3 kgs(about 4lbs) this suck

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I'm back :-(

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Relapse

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Thank god for raw diet and living. It saved me.

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Sweather weather

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Maybe I'd just starve and die. Wouldn't that be better. No more money being wasted.

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Guess what my family thinks I'm crazy and wasting money on healthy/organic food because they are 'expensive'. Well ok

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I thought eating really healthy and organic was the key to getting better. But no.

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No one understands how not eating makes me feel better. No one. I hate my family.

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so nothing worked at all?

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such a failure

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I guess that's the result of juggling 3 types of Ed at once.. starving, bingeing, purging, exercise, repeat repeat repeat = no gain no lose

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After all this struggling, I realised my weight was the same as 5 months ago. I didn't grew taller either. Hard work means nothing at all??

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Ana is always right. Remember that. Unless you're a rebel its kinda hard

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I just binged this morning in my day's birthday cake. didn't manage to get much out. I look like an elephant now.

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Endure

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Frozen fruits are my remedy 🍓🍌🍒 they taste like sorbet and are low in calories. blueberry dippin dots? :-)