Panda Aeternus

🌈🇳🇮🇭🇳 Gay Latine diabetic streamer with depression and anxiety who's on a journey of self-love, self-discovery, gaming, anime, & more!

[⚔️Dream Warrior⚔️ @ImDreamWarrior]

LONG VENT! Sorry! 😅

My favorite part! When the depression fades, anger takes its place. As frustrated as I am, frankly, I'm tired. I'm tired of never knowing who I can trust and who my friends are anymore. I've been used so many times, betrayed by the person I trusted most, erased by the next, and then accused of attacking others for voicing my feelings. I've been told my passions and want to motivate people to not take their life for granted is "harsh" or "mean". I've been told I would grow more if I would just chill out, calm down, or to "be less."

Why does everyone want me to be fake? What is so wrong with ME? Yeah I got my issues! I own up to them! Same way some cant handle loud noises, I don't handle silence well, BUT I'm actually working on it as best as I can. Is it SERIOUSLY because I'm passionate? A man who shows his emotions? Have energy? Am loud? I want people to understand how heartbreaking it is to constantly be told to change, to be their definition of "normal." To be told that your strengths, are actually weaknesses. I want to actually be heard and ATTEMPTED to be understood, instead of people usually missing the point entirely just to villainize me or lecture me (Assuming of course I wasn't just plain ignored). I just find it funny how I always have to be understanding of everyone else, but never the other way around.

I grew up my whole life being bullied into a box, told to "be less", and told to "cut the line off" (if you catch my drift), now all these years later, its coming back, and thats sad. NO ONE should have to change to be accepted. If they aren't spreading hate or hurting anyone, NO ONE should have to change to be accepted. Period. I'm not perfect, but I never pretended to be either. I've been hurt, betrayed, and used enough. I'm tired. I want to trust people again. I dont want to be used as a stepping stone anymore. I want friends that want to grow TOGETHER. I dont want anymore knives in my back. And I dont want to sacrifice my core being just to be accepted. NO ONE should have to.

I'm sorry for this long vent. Honestly I probably missed stuff but I think I got most of it! I hope you guys can understand. There's no hate or malice in my words, I just want to be understood and accepted for who I am without lowering myself. Thank You! 💜

PS- If you DO feel like any of this is an attack on you, you can either DM me and we can talk about it or you can just unfollow. I dont want drama.

[Londy 🍄 @LondysLounge]

this is your friendly reminder: you are enough, your content is enough, you’re doing great, and the doors are opening for you.

[itsNicole @itsNicoleTTV]

just because you know a streamer in real life doesn’t mean you get special treatment in their streams...

thinking you deserve priority or have “authority” in their space because of that is so rude and entitled.

i’ve had people join my lobbies without asking, post my personal information in chat, talk down on other viewers, and self-promote in my space because they think they’re exempt from the rules just because they know me.

that is literally NOT okay... regardless of who you are.

[こちゃ@イラスト素材屋さん @kochamhw]

#今月描いた絵を晒そう
お絵描き楽しくてどんどんゲームする時間が減ってます🎮

[Brody Foxx @BrodyFoxx]

Trans rights are human rights
Autism rights are human rights
We will stand. We will fight.
Everyone has human rights.

[Cro @The_Cro_Show]

yo @Tyler_TVGS @ScheduleOneGame I'm loving the game but can you remove this achievement? It's incredibly racist. The only achievement specifying a race. @4DirectionsTeam @IndigiHorror

[Buss 💫 @ThatBuss]

Decided to do a diva boots playthrough of following renegade platnum so we'll see how this goes 😓
But hii I missed streaming 💕

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[Jacksepticeye @Jacksepticeye]

AI art sucks. If you're an artist feel free to promote your work in the replies to this tweet so more people can find each other.

[Top of the Mornin Coffee @TOTMCoffee]

we’ve been seeing a lot of the AI Studio Ghibli art on here... so instead of seeing more of that garbage, here’s some incredible art from REAL artists in our community!

big thanks to @karsyntries @Luluisoff @CoolmadiDraws and all the other wonderful, real artists out there!

[Panda Aeternus @EhPanda_]

After being out of commission, it's time for a fresh start. Aiming to do a returning test stream on Tuesday 4/1. I hope to see you there <3 I hope you all are doing well and take care of yourselves!

[🌸Bibi🌸♿ @BibiBlossoms]

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[🌸Bibi🌸♿ @BibiBlossoms]

I just unexpectedly lost my medical coverage. Please share, it could lead to my next sale! So I can cover my medical bills.

I sell pins, compression gloves, artist gloves, chest binders, wrist braces, hip braces, hoodies, skorts, compression socks & more!

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[Panda Aeternus @EhPanda_]

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[fortune coochie @pinalaflame]

rapidash🐴 #blacktober no.11

[ForTheBiscuit @FTBiscuitGames]

🚨🟣NOW LIVE🟣🚨

IM BACK! Still sick but better and ready to go!

More Baldurs Gate 3 today!

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[ThriftstoreMilkshakes✨ @thriftshakes]

A lil late notice but I will be live at 4PM ET to maybe finish Callisto Protocol but we’ll see uwu👉🏽👈🏽See y’all there, customers✨

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