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[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

Hey, sorry if I made anyone worry! 💦

If you're curious about what's happened with me, I'm rebranding. Check out my new handle, @OmonomOS!

[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

here's an article i found about recovering from outrage fatigue. it helped me a little bit, and maybe if you're experiencing outrage fatigue yourself, it can help you a little, too.
https://t.co/c4csxy9pfk

[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

thank you everyone who was concerned and reached out to me.
i'm taking care of myself, and i'm going to be fine. don't worry about me. i've got a psych, a wonderful relationship, and a bunch of great friends.
i am going to be stepping away from twitter for a while though.

[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

i'm done. i give. i'm outrage fatigued.
i have been trying to look at the world and accept it for what it really is so that i can fight. so i can do things to make people's lives better. and i can't.
i don't have the capacity for this. and i'm so sorry.

[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

CW: politics, emotional breakdown

okay
i'm burnt out on current events
and real things happening in the real world

[Eight @Eight8Diamonds]

months after i've stopped watching political comedy and started avoiding the news nearly entirely, and started being emotionally fragile again, and started to have trouble just coping with my reality,, i'm. i'm finally ready to admit that that was a promise i couldn't keep.

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

if we can’t speak up & be safe. if the culture cannot build safety, rehabilitation, and have serious talks with men about being better men and working on themselves...
you stand to lose us too.
I’m tired. I tried. I’ll write a follow up but I don’t know what else there is to add.

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

you all knew of his behavior? and nobody bothered to confront that before it turned into something dangerous? men that could have confronted shitty predatory behavior before it became a danger could have but didn’t? nobody believed me when I tried...

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

and really it makes me so mad because I’ve gotten dozens of comments from people that worked with him basically saying “everyone that worked with him is not surprised” and how they had no idea when that’s such a lie.
Inappropriate behavior was happening in everyone’s face...

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

if I gave into what I was fighting with, as a result of what happened, would you even care?? would anyone be accountable? is this always going to be on the victim in ways that “you’re damned if you do, you’re damned if you don’t”?

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

I tried.
If we can’t protect ourselves from abusive and dangerous people and if our culture doesn’t have a space for confrontation AND healthy rehabilitation in ways that encourage better behavior,
then you stand to lose us (victims) too

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

I tried for years to bring this to light. it’s not out of the blue. every e3 I put out threads about how hard it is and how nobody will believe you unless you’re famous because I wasn’t even human enough to matter.
what does it take? too loud? too quiet? too direct? too indirect?

[Smiling Apple.jpg @ellaguro]

a lot of things about the game industry need to be flushed down the toilet if we don't want to continue to celebrate abusive asshole (mostly) men who cultivate
intense cults of personality around themselves and leverage that against anyone who might speak out against them

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

when someone comes forward about something, even if it's about something small that made someone uncomfortable. just the act of listening is how you change this. "i believe you" is the most powerful thing you can say to someone.

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

you can read the poetry in "Everything is going to be OK" and especially the "Missing Pages" are literally about this. it's in a game that this industry enjoyed and talked about. i'm not angry or resentful, not at all, but we're not good at listening or really acting this stuff.

[Joshua Larson 👾 @godatplay]

It's nice to have an environment to share this in, even the tiniest incident like this, but I will say I really regret not supporting @alienmelon sooner in this. You see, this moment didn't just come out of the blue, they've been posting about this pain for a long time.

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

look I’m going to do a follow up post but seriously guys I’m tired. I tried. by coming forward i cause more harm to myself and everything I worked so hard to build. you can extend the courtesy of at least reading the whole post before making videos about how I might be lying.

[Nathalie Lawhead @alienmelon]

i gave an interview for this. since it ends with talk of filing a defamation lawsuit against me please read this stuff before i get silenced: https://t.co/1HHtxMSIiw
also if any of you want to cross publish my two posts 👍🙏...