Elena Grebennikova (personal blog)

✝️ I'm a nature photographer,a chess player,a writer,a poet & RPG cosmopsychism GameDev.Former English teacher.I self-identify as autistic.Cognitive disability.

[Elena Grebennikova (personal blog) @Elena85andtrees]

My new photography project I began this summer. These are macro photos of pine tree bark. It reflects my RPG cosmopsychism ideas and archetypal fractals too. These are natural photos, the art of Nature.

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I wished to grow acorns at home, but it wasn't successful. It didn't sprout. Now avocados grow better.

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Good morning, world! ☕🌞

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If I told people directly, that they did mental harm to a person who was sincere, my memories of them will disappear. There'll be no looking into their blogs' content, only selective oblivion, like all these 2,5 years.

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unfortunately, events happened in the real world too, not only imaginary thoughts. it was the main factor why memories were locked out.

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if memories got locked out,it's because something awful was happening to the brain in the past.quite evidently,there're conjacent memories,&if 6 times selective memory lapses occured,it's rather evident to occur the next time smth triggers it.&reading my blog,I understood myself.

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@AvariceDAK thanks. but I'd rather not. it would have taken years to explain. 😐

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there's no opportunity to live through my life's situations more ordinary than tree bark photography. because even if I tell people about my life's story, they don't believe me. they think me too unusual&devalue my experience. while my life's events really happened to me.

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@AvariceDAK Beautiful, thanks!

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#NaturePhotography

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@AvariceDAK Thank you! Yea, nature photography is soothing to me. I feel that flowers and trees understand me. :-)

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I've spent the evening eating flatbreads with sour cream&reading books.Quite ok.I've sorted out my 2026 nature photography archives too.I wish to take photos of marple leaves,but basically my photography season is over.I like when my hands are warm,not taking photos in winter.

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@Dragonlady152 Goodnight, dear Kyla! x 🤗

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@AvariceDAK Thanks! I studied it at Uni, I graduated to be an English teacher. But I like art more. :-)

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Pine forest where I create all my tree bark photos depicting RPG stories. Nature is conscious.

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@AvariceDAK I've been living so for many years. Since 2011, when I got very sick. I have little energy and I have to keep a very calm scheduled life with mainly the same tasks every day. I have cognitive disability, organic brain issues.

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it's really more interesting than chess and nature photography. because it's not abstract, it's practical. it's the best level of telepathically/telekinetically controlling reality. while chess is only about controlling the pieces on a chess board.

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initially I studied all types of unusual phenomena, unusual paranormal techniques, theory too. I wanted to work out my own method of paranormally influencing reality. but then my organic brain issues began in 2021, so I forgot what I had read :) but I already have the techniques.

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it's impossible to live one's life again in the same style. so many years passed, and events couldn't be reversed. better to accept reality and not deny that life is going on.

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I still think my volunteer research job as I understand it, is the best job I could have found. At least, it is interesting and not boring. 😊

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My intuition tells me, if I make any linguistically wrong move, I won't be able to keep enough memories to go on my research. Because neurons are connected.

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2,5 years in hobbies, socializing and research is a long time interval. 🤔

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@AvariceDAK Thanks! Yea, forests are magical to me too. I love the trees that tell me best stories in their treebark.