TAKING COMMISSIONS
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I can never look at a picture of myself and not immediately judge how I look. I have to build myself up. Remember to love myself. It's not simple, it never has been but it's better than before.
TW: Body Dysmorphia
It's so sneaky. I love myself and my body. But I still want to do the best for myself. Being told I should be happy where I am is going against every. I was never allowed to be happy where I was. The attempt to progress is where I found comfort.
A constant struggle to just try to be normal and dodge what others see as being "on trend" with diets or "just this once" with treats. It honestly haunts me daily. Daily. I struggle with feeling I'm doing good. DAILY.
Arm day! πͺπ½
Did pretty well. But absolutely crushed my crunches. Did 100. Felt like I could have kept going but I'm terrified what tomorrow holds for me. π
Loving myself while overweight is a different kind of love. I feel worth the effort to continue a journey. Trying new routes because I want a goal. But still comfortable with myself in it all. A smaller me isn't a better me. A stronger, confident and loved one is a healthier one.
Was able to eat just fine later on. Considering it might be some of my medication. π€ Nothing terrible or painful. Just embarrassing when you poke at a salad in a restaurant and your waiter is questioning your choices. π
Experienced a strong sense of nausea yesterday while waiting for a meal at a restaurant. Wanted a salad. I was fine till I took the first bite. Just felt like if I kept trying to eat that the sensation would grow.
Currently 220lbs. Aiming for 180lbs. Focusing on strength training with low impact cardio. πͺπ½β€οΈ Gluten & Dairy Free with a focus on whole foods. π₯¬π«π