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Huge hole filled with nothingness. Just a big void, really

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Today has been a very hard day. Can't focus on anything, couldn't get anything done at work, and now I'm feeling like shit for it. Feeling heavily encumbered by all things in life, shit can be depleting sometimes

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It makes me so joyful to know that I have people that love me enough to hear me ramble about my problems. Feeling validated is a thing that saves lives!

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I guess my anguish isn't going anywhere soon, but reading my old shit did help putting things in perspective. Maybe it's nothing, and I should just wait for it to worn out. Guess I'll try distracting myself for now, no internet for a while might help, so bu-bye 👋🏻

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This was created in a moment of struggle, when I was dealing with burnout during the pandemic. Today some crazy bad vibes got to me out of the blue, and now I find out that it's been 6 years of this. Weird coincidence, and I guess it's unhappy birthday to my emotional breakdown…

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What should we do when a weird fucking anguish comes out of nowhere and lingers for no reason?? Feel like ripping my heart out of my chest, and I don't even know why I'm feeling like this… goddamn, being a human is the most fucked up experience imaginable!

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I have to be better at talking to people, it's not normal to drop 80 points of IQ everytime someone say's something to me

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Craving for things I can't have is an extremely tiring feeling…

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Very weird feeling when you finally realize that you have an addiction. I'm scared shitless of harming people around me, and yet, I might not be able to keep myself from doing that. Powerless, shameful, scared, anxious as fuck feeling. And anxiety is also a trigger, so… 😣

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My biggest frustration in life is living in a world where people constantly choose to be ignorant, even when they're told how pointless their actions are while trying to improve something, or even how harmful it can be to themselves.

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Even though all these women are actually attractive, the fact that I'm noticing it like that is not regular. I guess my brain is telling me something right now…

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Yesterday I met a new neighbor and found her really cute. Today I was at a medical appointment and there was this woman, she was gorgeous too. Just now I saw the new profile pic of a lady friend of mine, and she's looking amazing.

I'm cooked!

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My brother can't discuss anything with a single drop of profoundness, and he would rather say something annoying to piss you off than having an actual conversation. It's very tiring.

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Just need a lil break, that's all

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Finally decided to work on improving myself and shit starts to happen from left and right, almost like the world been tellin' "nah bitch, you gon' stay that way". Imma hardhead but FUCK, shit can be harder!

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Been a tough last few days… more like weeks or months… shiiii can't even remember the last time it wasn't tough. Life's a cold bitch, man 😓

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I hate myself for it, and it's not healthy. I really wish I could stop it.

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The moment I learn how to stop doing it, and control my own impulses on discussing stupid shit, I'll be an elevated human being

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Why the fuck am I engaging is such stupid and unproductive discussions? Why am I doing this to myself and my loved ones? It's ludicrous, useless, does nothing other than waste energy and time, and still… I'm here doing this.

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It was, indeed, nothing. Going or coming.

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I feel I might regret this, but maybe it's something that needs to be done, sooo… here goes nothing, I guess