you know that it's possible to be hyper-sensitive and to simultaneously also be very playful?
they don't have to be at odds
neuroticism is just maladaptive sensitivity
when your sensitivity works against you instead of for you
it's something i struggled with in my teenage years a lot, the neurotic edge is a classic trait of ADHD - it's very easy to spiral into catastrophe loops of overthinking
i mainly quelled mine with alcohol and drugs at first, that was the only thing that could calm down my sensitivity and rapid paced thought loops
i still experience it, but i just let it move through me and express it quickly so i can reflect on it and integrate it and effectively run the loop quickly in order to close and mitigate spirals before it goes bad
i don't always succeed, and sometimes the quickening of it is just very snappy expressions like bursts of neurotic rage
but the bursts do help - steam engines gotta let out steam etc
they can shadowban my X account
but they can never shadowban my heart
just like they can imprison my body, but they can never imprison my mind
I am infinitely more free in any moment of my life, than any of them have ever been in any moment of their lives
because a free spirit can never be tamed no matter how hard they try
in trying they only enslave themselves to my esteem, subtly declaring themselves the beaten and me the unbeaten
and in that truth my victory has already found itself
Chasing rocket launches is extremely addictive. I don't have any major ones coming for a bit so I'll be going through older launches and sharing photos I took that were never released.
This is from the GPS III launch last May.
«How» nuclear test, 14 kilotons, 91 m tower, Nevada, June 5, 1952. These photographs were taken with a «Rapatronic» high-speed camera 0.2, 0.7, 4.4 and 11 milliseconds after detonation.
until they all bend their knees and surrender to me, then there will be no mercy or tolerance
I would literally rather die than ever crawl and lick the shoes of my inner child’s enemies
that is my nemesis, as I am their nemesis
I am the nemesis of the modern world order
"The theurgic apotheosis means not only union with the gods, but also acquiring a transformed perception and a golden body of light, which imitates the solar orb (aten) and may be compared to a star."
to love greatly requires an equally great capacity for hate and intolerance
people will scapegoat intolerance and hate as being lowly emotions or feelings of incompetence - but the truth is it’s because they are too weak to handle these feelings so they suppress and demonize them
if you do not have the capacity to hate what threatens that which you love, then you do not truly have the capacity to love
if you love life, but you are too weak to hate that which destroys life, thereby letting life degenerate in front of you without resistance - then do you truly love life as you claim?
if you love life, yet you tolerate its decay - then do you truly love it?
it’s the same for most things
if you have a loved one and watch them destroy themselves while doing nothing to stop or help them - then do you truly love them?
same across it all
do you truly love humanity if you are too weak to put your foot down and try to end the cascade chains into oblivion?
that is the crux of it all
of everything
of everyone
they all claim love is the answer
and yes maybe love is the answer
but the true question is whether they are strong enough to carry love?
and the answer is MOST ARE NOT
their love is not love but tolerance and cowardice and appeasement disguised as love
weak smelly disgusting cowardice, cowardice that will lead us all into the abyss
true love is not for the weak
which is why true love is barren and absent from this world, despite having become such a buzzword and virtue to signal
because they are all cowards
Aristotle viewed the true nature of man to be command and of woman to be obedience
such a perspective is often taken out of context and misinterpreted, leading to the idea of toxic gender roles and so on
but to truly understand Aristotle, one must first understand his era and his surroundings
Aristotle grew up in an age of heros and warriors, he had a hand in tutoring the greatest warrior prince of all time
to Aristotle, these gender roles were not roles of traditional gender toxicity as many in modernity might assume at such a statement
on the contrary, he saw this as the most empowering form of both man and woman
you see it is in this form that both roles find their deepest vitality
for woman to be obedient is not to be some house slave - the macedonian and greek women of the time were actually masters of the royal courts and possibly the most empowered women of antiquity
you see when you understand it from a perspective of devotion and trust, then the entire motion of command and obedience completely changes in ontology
it is not about control as much as it is about trust and being able to fully unfold oneself in the respective formats
for a man to truly command, it requires a strong woman at his back that will obey the family interests and manage his estate - likewise for a woman to truly obey it requires the strength of a commanding force worth obeying
you see it is not about control or micromanagement, it is about bidirectional devotion
when Aristotle said “the truest nature of man is to command and of woman is to obey”
he is speaking at a deeper truth of the gender roles in their magnetic forms
he is speaking in the direction of an Alexander commanding the battlefields while his mother and wives managed the courts of his empire
that is what true empowerment and devotion looks like in the magnetized form
it is,
to be capable of greater talent as a man requires the devotion of a woman that will manage one’s interests behind the scenes without any doubt towards their loyalty
to be capable of greater talent as a woman requires the inspiration of a man that will command forces in front of her
it is a mutual devotion - the meaning of ‘command and obey’ lose their negative connotations when it is approached from this perspective of love and empowerment
- command simply becomes the embodiment of expanding the interests and legacy of the family to the fullest
- obedience simply becomes the embodiment of managing the interests of the family to the fullest
what Aristotle understood, many have since forgotten
the true meaning of the divine feminine and divine masculine
the true meaning of the throne and the engine
The Moon last night, captured with my 12" telescope. That blue color you see? Real, but nothing to do with the "blue moon"
There is color visible on the moon year round- and it can be captured in photos fairly easily, just by increasing the saturation, as I've done here
You can download a model of the fractal folding structure of our hypersonic precooler (see previous post) on the LEAP 71 website (Gallery/Models). Even relatively simple algorithms can create complex structures: one of the superpowers of Computational Engineering.
On May 31, 1957, the British boosted fission atomic bomb «Orange Herald» with a yield of 720 kilotons was tested on Malden Island in the Pacific. It is thought that the fusion boosting failed to increase the yield. The largest pure-fission bomb ever tested.
Colony on a new world, near some moons in very low orbits. Unless they're made of tungsten, they'd be inside the Roche limit!
#space#art by Erik Stitt.
https://t.co/HrgV3ROKhB
“History is a record of the domination of the weak by the strong, and no amount of moralizing can alter that fact. Moreover, attempts to ignore or deny biological inequality are among the most dangerous self-deceptions of modern man.”
— H. P. Lovecraft