I got these absolutely banger pair of denim shorts I am just DYING to wear but I have a lot more weight to loose, I am that downbad I have them displayed and every day now I’m like “PLEASE CAN I FIT IN THESE I BEG”
if u refuse to properly communicate with me until the last second when ur already fed up w shit i didn’t even know was an issue i’m going to assume you simply wanted an excuse to get rid of me cus there’s no reason at our big age to be doing all that
@sunnywoofs_ Thank you so much for your kindness, I’ve really suffered with this stuff for the past couple months and the constant fear that something bad is going to happen is horrible. I feel like I’ve been conditioned to expect the worst and it’s driving me insane :(
I’m such a broken mess of a person that even peace scares me.
When everything is quiet, I don’t feel calm. I just keep waiting for something to go wrong. I’m always expecting someone to hurt me again. It’s like my brain won’t let me believe that things are actually okay.
Every day I wait for the next bad thing to happen. The waiting is sometimes worse than the thing itself. It builds up until I end up having panic attacks over something that hasn’t even happened.
I hate living like this. I just want to know what it feels like to feel safe without constantly waiting for it to be taken away.
everyday i live in a self imposed exile i needlessly yearn for what could’ve been & isolate myself in the comforting loneliness of my own prison cell too scared to go outside too too fearful of being perceived yet greedy with a desire to be understood
The worst part of my life wasn’t just being broken, used, and taken advantage of by people. It was reaching the point where I couldn’t take it anymore, only to be told that I was the problem for finally breaking.