Esther Awoyemi

Author//Linguist//Cooperate Event Compere//Addiction Recovery Coach//A God fan

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Sunday looked like this……..🤍

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

I stan for modesty all the way!

Covabodi festival had me in Lagos for the first time all the way from Ekiti State😌

It was so nice seeing beautiful faces in beautiful dresses representing the ONE who made them.

#covabodi
#thepioneer

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

@d_ocheido Since heaven doesn’t sound like a safe place for her, I’m sure she will enjoy hell then. Lots of fun activities🤭
Chilling with the devil and his demons
Burning for eternity, oh what enjoyment.

[Deborah Ocheido @d_ocheido]

I sat on my bed a few days ago

This was my bed as a single lady in my fathers house

I sat on that same bed and it occurred to me that few years ago I cried bitter tears on that bed

When my heart was broken that was the bed where I cried in secret

When my life was paused and it seemed like nothing was moving for me, I cried on that bed

I wondered on that bed if I would marry

I wondered on that bed if I would have babies

Funny thing was that afternoon when I sat reminiscing, I sat with my little boy on that bed

My boy was jumping and bouncing on that same bed

And I laughed

I laughed at the devil

I laughed at my foolish heart for ever doubting Jehovah

Funny how all those worries are behind us

To think I wondered about children on that bed to be holding my son on that same bed is pretty interesting

I can imagine God looking down from heaven smiling and saying “I thought I told you to just relax and trust me”??

I pray for you today, may all the things bothering you today be things that would reminisce about and smile with your blessing in front of you

Amen

Happy Sunday

Blessings!

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Ehn fine girl?
#thepioneer
#trend

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

He wants you isolated.

Convinced that nobody will understand.

Convinced that you have to carry it all alone.

You don’t.

Find safe people.

Speak.

Healing has a way of entering through doors that honesty opens.

Happy Sunday, beautiful souls

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

I sat across Pastor Mrs Jide, pondering if I should tell her or not.

“Sister Comfort, please feel comfortable, I’m all ears when you’re ready”

Comfortable was the last thing I wanted to feel but I needed to get this heavy load that makes me breathless and worthless,

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Sometimes healing begins the moment you find one person who listens without condemning, who stays without judging, who reminds you that your story is bigger than what happened to you.

The devil thrives in secrecy.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Not everyone will understand.

Not everyone will listen.

Not everyone will handle your wounds with care.

But not everyone is unsafe either.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Then she said that word I never would have thought anyone would say to me

“It’s not your fault, Comfort”
And the tears came pouring in, yet again.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

the uncontrollable ones that came right after I promised myself I wouldn’t do it again, I also told her about the suicide attempts.

When I finished, she was by my side, wiping my tears while shedding a few of her own.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

And so I told her about my step father, I told her about my neighbors son my mom would always leave me with, I told her about my best friend, Wura. And the numerous bed friends I have, I also told her about the urges,

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

your fault, that you were the one with the evil spirit that seduced men.

“Sister comfort”
She called again, snapping me out of my thoughts. I guess I would just take the risk, the worst she could do can’t be compared to the way I’m feeling.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

out of my chest. I needed to tell someone.

But I was scared she would be just like the others

The ones that used your case to preach at the next Sunday service, pointing fingers at you, the ones that judge you without hearing the whole story, the ones that would tell you it’s

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Be careful of the people you leave them with. And I do not mean just men, even ladies, there are female molesters too.

Lastly commit them into God’s hands because you can do all of the above and still have a brother, sister, pastor raped them.
Selah!

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

My half brother rapëd me…

It was a Saturday morning and I was seven at the time, so young and vulnerable.

My mom had gone to shop leaving me with my half brother who was quite older than me, old enough to be called a man.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

As parents and upcoming parents
Please create an atmosphere for your children to tell you anything and everything. Teach them about sex education because social media and the world will do if you choose not to. Tell them what is appropriate and what is not.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

By the time they are old, it can’t be controlled anymore because the seed has already been sown and they discover they are addicted with no control.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

And the sad part of this is, the parents or guardian have no idea of this while the child suffers in silence and gives devil the room to plant seeds of mastu*bation, pornogr*phy, lesbi*nism and so on in their life.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

Over the space of a year that I’ve started helping people going through addiction, I’ve had too many cases than normal, of them being raped, abused or molested as a child by someone they thought family, friends or relatives.

[Esther Awoyemi @EstherAwoyemi3]

He told me my mom wouldn’t believe me if I said anything
He told me she doesn’t love me and he would make sure to send me out of the house or hurt me if I ever said anything.
I believed him.