just remembered that time i said if i ever had a son who grew up to be a rapist or murderer i would not love him anymore and boy moms attacked me for like a week straight so i would like to double down on that and say that not only would i no longer love him, i would k*** him♥️
God was protecting you from something that was going to steal, kill, and destroy your destiny while you felt you were being rejected. Remember that God has plan for you.