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@zoeblade He wasn't looking at me or anything. Otherwise I'd probably act like everything is normal instead of averting my gaze right away. I wish that kind of thing didn't surprise me in that way but it does.

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@zoeblade Last time it happened, I saw someone with a missing eye which triggered it the other day. Rounded the corner and saw him a few feet away in line. Which triggered it for a few seconds. I looked away immediately, but still caused legs to burn.

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@zoeblade I don't know why the pain is different from just being 'surprised'. Like if I get jump scared, I just get a stomach drop like most people. But if I get surprised and see someone hurt, I get the leg pain. It's a mystery to me why the triggers are different.

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@zoeblade and another time someone fell wrong in front of me and dislocated their elbow which triggered it. It only happens when there is surprise and 'empathetic emotion' involved at the same time. If it's just surprise, my stomach will drop but no leg pain.

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@zoeblade Yeah, just for a bit, and it goes away quickly. I guess it's like when your stomach drops if you see something that scares/surprises you, but for reacting to seeing someone hurt.

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@zoeblade oh and btw it feels like intense lactic acid buildup after running a few miles, but only lasts for like 5-10 seconds, then it's back to normal.

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@zoeblade Like, oh I feel bad seeing this, oww my legs are burning, these two things happening at the same time emphasize how bad i feel even more than if I just felt bad internally.

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@zoeblade I guess it's a bit odd. I was thinking more about this earlier since it happened to me just yesterday, and maybe it's there to emphasize emotion.

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@zoeblade I had spent like.. 7 years going back and forth on getting checked. And it bothered me a lot when it was obvious I had a lil trouble paying attention to more boring things than others.

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@zoeblade Then they are like "Oh yeah, you were diagnosed with mild ADD when you were a kid." And it's like I was struggling with that for so long, and they didn't wanna put me on a low dose of anything to try to help because pill bad.

At least taught me how to cope.

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@amanda_parris toxic masculinity has nothing to do with this. It's a person assaulting another person over a verbal joke about his spouse. Could have been the wife assaulting him over a joke about her husband. In terms of right or wrong, there is no difference. It ends there.

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@thomyorke feels weird imagining Thom playing a video game. Like it does not compute for whatever reason.

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@Frust_Kerlchen IDK why but I associate the track with you. I just remember a conversation about it a few years back. I think on twitter pms. Good to see you are well!

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@Frust_Kerlchen

I remember you saying you liked this track and asked for me to send you the finished version, well here it is 5 years later. Cheers!

https://t.co/KyYSH3BodO

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@zoeblade That said, to me this is one of those things where you can do whatever you want. Mr/Ms PH is totally fine.... so it just PH.

Why not just sell all of them, that way everyone can get the one they may identify with the most.

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@zoeblade 90% of them probably never even played with one

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@zoeblade And then when you get to your 20s, he says it feels like it can stifle his creativity and that he has to force himself to think outside of the 'music theory rulebook'. He does not do it intuitively.

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@zoeblade I have a friend who was taught music theory at a very young age and piano/violin as well. He told me that he thinks it is a bad idea to teach it so early, because as a 12 year old you will look at it as rules and use it to learn.