After 5 years of being inactive I’m happy to be back to creating some cool artwork again. This time around, I got super inspired by @MarathonTheGame art design and I was super stoked to illustrate the vibe of going into dire marsh with my boy! #marathongame#illustration
Just realized I’ve played nothing but @MarathonTheGame since the server slam LOL 😭😭
530 hours no signs of slowing down, thank you @Bungie, I really do wish all of you the best 💚💚
Why does twitter feel like everyone in the comment sections is either wanting to promote their only fans or get their 15 seconds of fame by sharing an unrelated meme to the main post 😂
For years I was completely detached from life.
I called it: being on my spaceship.
How I Got Out Of Dissociation:
I feel into a pattern of dissociating at a young age. I would look like I was there, but I was lost in my my mind. Numb. And a million miles away.
It wasn't until my partner said to me "are you really here?" when I realized my lack of presence was known.
I'd always wondered why I lacked memories.
I had almost no memories of my childhood and when friends brought up things I just couldn't remember the way they did.
At one point I thought I had a rare brain disorder (no joke.)
Finally, I started studying functional freeze. Most people have heard of fight or flight. Freeze when our body becomes dissociated to stay safe.
We're physically present but mentally gone.
Getting out of my dissociated state meant pattern interruptions. Getting out of autopilot...
I started a morning routine of journaling.
Next, I created a conscious check in. One time of day where I was fully in my body. Nothing all smells, sounds, and sensations around me. I had to teach myself it was safe to be in the moment. I still teach this 7 years later in @selfhealerscirc
Next, I prioritized sleep and nutrition. I put myself to bed really and woke up early. We're more likely dissociate when our body is low on resources. Which is why sleep and nutrition are key in healing this pattern.
If you dissociate, you're not alone. You do not have a disorder. Your body its trying to protect you.
You can come out of the frozen state and start to live again with small steps every day.
Retweet for awareness.
Most people don't want the truth.
They want their beliefs reinforced.
The truth is appreciated by those who have control of their ego. Who are invested in reality even when it makes them uncomfortable.
Maturity is giving up the adrenaline of chasing love to settle into the ease of a true partner. Someone who pushes you to be the best version of yourself. Someone who invests in “we” instead of “I.”