I cant believe what ive done its hurting me so badly idk what to do with myself i regret it, i shouldt have done it. Ive fucked up i was scared im always scared
One moment i can have a good time then in a split second im in a mood thats overwhelming cause i realize how miserable i am nothing seems to work and its tearing me apart. I havenβt been living in years
i wanna kill myself but yet i have nothing to kill myself with im forced into a feeling i cant bear anymore. i wanna be happy but i know i never can have it