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I just want to feel like I'm worth something🙇🏻‍♀️ GW: 55kg

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The closer I get to people,
The further they drift away from me.

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Every influencer ever suddenly sellinga home workout plan...it’s already paining me that this is all only going to make my ED worse

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I’ve been working out to lose a few more kilos but then I get hungrier and I want to tear my hair out because I hate feeling weak and shaky but I want to be thin and beautiful like I used to be

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I try and eat well and work out but then my mind starts its old ways of calculating every last calorie and step taken. Nothing can ever be normal in my head

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I’m so done with being alone. With going to parties alone and being ignored and excluded wheb my friends all dance and chat to their significant others.

When will it be my turn to have someone love me?

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I hate falling asleep after drinking. I hate the anxiety I’m going to feel no matter how “sober” sort of I am

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I feel like I’m destined to fail at my academic career

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I no longer count calories, but my anxiety is through the roof. I feel like I have less and less people to turn to

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I realised how important it is for me to keep a diary to know how far I have come. My tweets will be that for me once again

[human error. @blxcknicotine]

I don’t know why I’m sad

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I’ve grown to be in a tight battle between knowing my ED is bad and that recovery has made me healthier
And wanting so badly to lose weight and feel free again

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This time next year I will be skinnier

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Just a note: the Samaritans saved my life a few months ago. I needed that voice on the end of the call more than ever and I am still grateful for whoever it was that picked up and helped me get through the night.

[. @blaxksouls]

Has anyone ever rang the Samaritans? If so, could you please dm me about what it was like? I’m really anxious about it but feel so desperate

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@blaxksouls Will pm you!

[Secret @suicide_shush]

Yall I love yall guys sm :,) I started this in like 2014 a broken sad awful suicidal mess but I'm going into 2020 happy self harm free and just finally comfortable:,) I'm not all fixed but I'm miles away from where I started. Thanks to all the support 💜💜💜

[☕️ ³ @caffeine_baby]

have i been telling myself for years that this is the year i’m getting skinny forever?

yes

have i failed every single year?

also yes

will this stop me from making the exact same resolution this year again?

absolutely not.