I don’t want a soft life because I’m lazy ! I want a soft life because I’ve spent most of my life in survival mode ! My nervous system has been in fight or flight since childhood & now I’m choosing peace, softness & stability !
It took hitting my lowest point for me to realize that not putting 100% into one thing even when times get tough keeps me stuck in a never ending cycle of giving up
I used to be so optimistic only when things were going well. Once they got bad I would simply give up thinkin it was a sign that I shouldn't be doing it