Lex

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Because of some medications I'll have to take four different types My psychiatrist said I have borderline personality disorder I never imagined Id have it

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I hate the fact that it was verified just because I signed up for premium what a stupid thing

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Hello about two months ago I couldnt take it anymore and I simply took 10 Lexapro pills to sleep forever but it didn't kill me it only caused palpitations increased my heart rate 200 times almost causing a heart attack because of what I did My brain went into alert mode my anxiety attack started I can't stay still my head is always heavy full of thoughts my arms are always trembling, my heart is no longer the same I have constant palpitations Im always putting my hand on my chest thinking Im going to have a heart attack Now Im paranoid that anything that happens to my body will kill me not even cutting myself will get that out of my mind Im always going to the hospital to check my heart rate I regret it very much but now there's no going back

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

@PorraAnypin thx

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

W do I gain by cutting myself? Scars? Just taking out all my problems on my body

#selfharm #shtwt

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I hate being forced to eat seriously there's always someone in the family who forces you to eat too much

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

👀 #selfharm

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Family gatherings are like a minefield just waiting for someone to say something and start a fight

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Hi I hate family parties

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

But in the end Ill be back at square one again but Ill enjoy it while it lasts

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

It's very good to plant roses you hope they take root oh well maybe I've found what helps me

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I started planting roses I don't know why but I started to like roses

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I went back to taking my depression medication does it really help? I don't know fuck it

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Today after a long time something funny happened I got out of bed and went to leave the room but my foot got caught in the damn blanket and I fell face-first onto the floor I don't know why but I started laughing

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I liked
#shtwt

[Lex @LexKilll]

remember suicide is always an option to have peace forever and end everything

[미래 @Anikumirae]

Why do some people post pictures of their self-harm and add anime filters? Is it to get attention? Because those who actually suffer from this aren't going to look for filters to "make it look cute"

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Maybe Im trying because someone believes in me but I cant

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

I dont know why I havent killed myself yet Maybe I have hope that things will get better even though I see that everything is getting worse every day Im becoming a freak Im cutting myself to try to escape the inevitable Im very scared but I want to rest

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

Seriously this is very old My grandmother used it before she died I found it and thought why not

[Lex @Fearcorpss]

old scissors