@onikachudai I started like this because I no longer have the will to live until I decide to commit suicide I like to cut myself (but normally it's like this, 3 cuts on the wrist later, if you don't control it, it only gets worse)
My head is a mess. I think about taking a gun, going out on the street and killing as many people as I can, and also taking a knife, entering someone's house pretending to want water and stabbing the person in the neck. I'm thinking about doing this I'm fighting with my own mind