@MissFushiGaming Yeah, the SSRIs typically suppress most of the "feels". I started wit SSRIs but eventually took NRIs which worked differently.
Good luck and if you feel like you have to take them again after some time - don't feel bad. The fact that your even going without them is progress!
@AymCybele28 Exactly the same for me, even the age. I feel like beeing in a relationship at some point is expected by society. But I don't pressure myself with that expectation. Just trying to live my life, be with friends, go after hobbies that I enjoy. As long as I'm happy, all is good.