Honestly, I wish I was dead. There's really no point to being alive. I'll never have what I want because I don't work for it because I don't want to work for it, so I don't deserve it anyway.
One of the best orgasms I've ever had was from getting woken up to a blowjob from my girlfriend at the time, then grabbing her head and thrusting into her mouth until I came. Need that again ๐ซ
Last night, I publicly embarrassed myself in front of a crowd, my job makes me want to walk into oncoming traffic, my whole life sucks because I'm incapable of being a normal adult and yeah, I just want to die. There's no point to living, for me. None.