⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎

/•᷅•᷄\੭ Nya~ Shark x Neko hybrid ~ #ENVTuber ⊹ ࣪ ˖ sowwi I succ at games 모 @GamerSupps code: FINNYA | Merch @ShopUwUMarket 🎀 Join my discord u baka~ ♡

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

⋆. 𐙚 ̊ Finnya 2.0 Model Reveal (•˕ •マ.ᐟ

Thank you for always supporting me, believing in me, helping my dreams come true, and giving me a chance ♡

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ﾟ。 (re)debut 14.02.26 ♡
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[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

Since questions in DM are still happening, here are the links combined of posts that I made on her harassment to me.

All of these are public posts and info you can find yourselves. If you have any further questions, I sincerely hope they can be answered by looking through the links.

I hope this is the last time I have to speak on her. I don't have the energy to keep doing this.

Thank you for respecting that.

https://t.co/dX0bJA9Vps

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

I am sincerely asking to please leave me out of this.

Please stop involving me in anything regarding Sumi/Mayo/Miyu/Ruii, or whatever she decides to rebrands to next.

She's been harassing me for 7 months now, it has already burned me out enough. I am exhausted.

Thank you.

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

I do not really know how to say this.

I feel very burnt out. In reality I am really not doing well, financially, mentally, nor physically. Things have been a struggle for me for a while now and I feel like I am stuck in a loop.

I have been very unsure for a while if the VTuber space is worth it for me anymore, because everything that has happened and is still happening has taken a huge hit on my mental health and has been for a long time now. I am at a point where I do not know if I still want to keep going. A lot of the time it feels like the only reason I keep going is because I know there are people who want me gone, and I did not want them to win. Living my life out of spite or defense is exhausting, and all I have been able to do recently is just, cry.

I am exhausted. I feel extremely lonely. It feels harder and harder to find real friends, and sometimes it feels like the people I do meet only like my character, “Finnya”, not me for who I am. Friendships feel hollow, everything seems surface level, and at the end of the day I feel like I have no one. I also struggle a lot even daring to speak to people anymore. I feel like everything I say or do could be used against me at some point and posted on the internet, just another thing to get harassed over, so for a while now I have not been able to be myself. I am always overthinking what I say, when I say it, or how I say it… it is draining.

I do not know what I should do anymore. I do not know if I should keep pushing through or call it quits, sell everything and disappear. I do not know what is best for me right now.

My anxiety and depression have gotten worse. I am now struggling with basic things like sleeping, eating, and taking care of myself. I have been locking myself inside and avoiding people. I do not even fully understand what I am feeling anymore or what to do about it, each day just goes by and I am just existing.

I have gotten really good at hiding everything for a long time now and pretending to be happy all the time, because that is what “Finnya” is supposed to do. I have always tried to stay positive for my community, but the truth is that I am scared that I am at my end.

My physical health has also not been good for a while now, and complications are constantly catching up on me.

I really want to be happy, I just do not know how right now. I feel like I lost my spark, and I do not know if staying in this space is good for me or if it is doing more harm than good.

I am sorry. I do not have clear answers right now, and I do not know what the next step is yet. I sincerely apologize for not being active or consistent.

I hope I can just come back in a few days, be all happy how I usually am, forget I said anything and try to forget how I feel. I do not want to disappoint anyone, and I do not want anyone to feel let down because of me. I truly appreciate all the support I have gotten in my time here. The least I can do is make you guys happy, I feel like I owe that to you.

I am not okay, but for as long as I can I will pretend to be.

Just keep swimming. 🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

POV: you got too immersed in your own model

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

Take me on walks with you, please? 🐾

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

POV: you got too immersed in your own model

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

You know where to find me ✨

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

Take me on walks with you, please? 🐾

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@Ghostdragon742 Thank you so much Ghost!! I try my best 🩷🫂

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

I have only been streaming once every few months, and I really want to change that. 🥺

One of the biggest reasons for that has always been fear of being judged for background noise—specifically my son being judged.

My son is autistic and nonverbal, he can often be very loud and make random noises, it’s just part of who he is. He also uses a lot of echolalia (repeating words or phrases / “parroting”, often without meaning or reason), so you might hear him repeating me, things he has heard from others, or even say random things from TV or games. Often this can create funny moments…^^ Sometimes there is even a delay to echolalia, where something he heard the day before comes out later as a way to help him process.

(Lately he has been getting better at expressing his needs through echolalia, and I could not be more proud of him. 🍀)

I have always been scared of how people on the internet might react to hearing him. I never want him to feel judged or unwelcome, and unfortunately, some people online can be really cruel—I have seen that side of things.

He has already been used as a way to harass me before, and he does not deserve that. I have always been terrified of people clipping him or using him for their own gain. People also love to throw accusations around when they hear a kid in the background..

The reality is, I am his full-time caregiver. He can only handle school one to two days a week at most—which are the same days I have school—and there are no daycare options around here that fit his needs. So I do not really have “free time” to stream or unwind. The care for him is intense, and finding time for myself is impossible.

If I want to do this consistently, it means streaming while he is next to me. You might hear him sometimes—many of you already do in calls every day—and I am starting to feel like that just has to become a part of it.

He is a huge part of my life, and I would not want it any other way. If that is not something you can accept, then my community might not be the right place for you.

He is also the reason behind so much of my branding—he is why I was called “Mommy Shark,” he influenced my design choices, and in our community we have always called him “Baby Shark.”

So instead of worrying about it, I want to do this together with him. He might be part of the stream sometimes, and he will be heard. He deserves to be heard.

I really want to build a community and finally pursue this dream properly—but I do want to set one clear boundary:
If you have an issue with me, that is fine, but please do not involve him. Do not mention him, clip him, or use him in any way. He is not part of any drama, and I expect that to be respected.

He will be part of my brand moving forward (yes, he is getting a PNG!)

I hope that is something you all can support and respect. 🫂🩷

Love,
Mommy Shark & Baby Shark

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@Euniebooh Thank you for being so kind and supportive to us!! You’re completely right and if they don’t like it they can watch someone else, the right people will stick 🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@Achromatyczna Thank you for being kind and supportive!! We will do our best!! 🥰🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

I have only been streaming once every few months, and I really want to change that. 🥺

One of the biggest reasons for that has always been fear of being judged for background noise—specifically my son being judged.

My son is autistic and nonverbal, he can often be very loud and make random noises, it’s just part of who he is. He also uses a lot of echolalia (repeating words or phrases / “parroting”, often without meaning or reason), so you might hear him repeating me, things he has heard from others, or even say random things from TV or games. Often this can create funny moments…^^ Sometimes there is even a delay to echolalia, where something he heard the day before comes out later as a way to help him process.

(Lately he has been getting better at expressing his needs through echolalia, and I could not be more proud of him. 🍀)

I have always been scared of how people on the internet might react to hearing him. I never want him to feel judged or unwelcome, and unfortunately, some people online can be really cruel—I have seen that side of things.

He has already been used as a way to harass me before, and he does not deserve that. I have always been terrified of people clipping him or using him for their own gain. People also love to throw accusations around when they hear a kid in the background..

The reality is, I am his full-time caregiver. He can only handle school one to two days a week at most—which are the same days I have school—and there are no daycare options around here that fit his needs. So I do not really have “free time” to stream or unwind. The care for him is intense, and finding time for myself is impossible.

If I want to do this consistently, it means streaming while he is next to me. You might hear him sometimes—many of you already do in calls every day—and I am starting to feel like that just has to become a part of it.

He is a huge part of my life, and I would not want it any other way. If that is not something you can accept, then my community might not be the right place for you.

He is also the reason behind so much of my branding—he is why I was called “Mommy Shark,” he influenced my design choices, and in our community we have always called him “Baby Shark.”

So instead of worrying about it, I want to do this together with him. He might be part of the stream sometimes, and he will be heard. He deserves to be heard.

I really want to build a community and finally pursue this dream properly—but I do want to set one clear boundary:
If you have an issue with me, that is fine, but please do not involve him. Do not mention him, clip him, or use him in any way. He is not part of any drama, and I expect that to be respected.

He will be part of my brand moving forward (yes, he is getting a PNG!)

I hope that is something you all can support and respect. 🫂🩷

Love,
Mommy Shark & Baby Shark

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@CaptainShyra You sound about 25-30 I think, a mature young lady ✨

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

That’s so nice.. it’s so cool how your chat didn’t mind and just went with it! That’s beautiful and I really look up to you and your strength.🫂 it’s not easy sometimes raising kids with special needs but it’s so worth it. They are the sweetest, kindest, most pure of them all.

Hearing your story makes me feel assured, maybe it won’t be so big of a deal when people hear him.. if they want to watch me they watch him. Thank you for sharing this 🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@DreamyKathieVT People can be really mean about hearing people or things in the background, but I think we shouldn’t worry about it at all and just be ourselves 🫂🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

Thank you for being so sweet Cinnie!! 🥺🩷

I used to be afraid of the background noise and reactions but from now I will embrace it and if people want to think things of me it’s their problem, me and baby shark are in this together! We do our best, thank you for being so supportive and kind 🍀

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@SinderVaxx Thank you for being so accepting, he’s a big part of me and I don’t want to worry about mic noises anymore 🫂🩷

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@RoelRaizel He loves that song, you should make a cover 🎶

[⋆.𐙚 ̊ Finnya ᢉ𐭩 ⚓︎ @FinnyaVT]

@CaffeineHag This means so much coming from someone in the same boat, thank you so much!! You keep going also 🩷🍀

[TheCaffeineHag (Coms Open) @CaffeineHag]

@FinnyaVT Hell yeah! As a fellow mom with a spectrum kiddo keep going 💖