I’m proud of overcoming everything that happened to be able to find myself again and smile once more. I know I’ll have my moments of weakness still, but I also am no longer alone. I hope it will become easier overtime for me as I heal more.
I’m fighting the sadness again. Scared of relapsing to where I was a year ago when I was so sad and lonely. I worked through all the sadness and pain to feel vulnerable at times and not trust people easily. But this time I have people who would support me and be there for me.
They say the first step is always the hardest one to take, I say I’m not strong enough to take it, but if I’m willing to put what’s left of me on the line I have to be strong enough.
How could you tear my heart out like it was nothing and think I’d be ready to come back. I’m already broken enough as it is and you wouldn’t know how much pain I’ve been forced to endure.
I have a right to be upset don’t I? I messed up I know but this punishment was beyond harsh. And I can’t do anything to change it. I lost it and I can’t get it back.
You know I’m kinda pissed rn. Go missing for 2 weeks and people start making up rumors where you went or what happened cause no one has heard from you in some time.
Some undesirable people found my gaming twitter so I guess I have a personal for things. Which isn’t so bad. I guess I can ge more open about things now.