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Taking a damn break, working on myself cause I need to live like a fucking human being, 18+ (Xe/Xer)

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E and Spiro date 8/31/20

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So yeah, see ya 💖

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I’m getting off twitter for an indefinite amount of time, I’ll still dm, but I don’t feel it’s healthy at all for this position I’ve put myself in to have so much control over me and my mental stability, It’s not okay to feel indebted to it, controlled by it

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I’ve been working on myself a lot, trying my best to improve daily, I owe that to myself and everyone around me, but I genuinely think that if I stayed here anything could send me over the edge, that’s not okay, I need to heal, I need to improve

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Like am I just playing a waiting game of getting ready to be pushed over the edge?

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Constantly filled with a burning self abhorrence, self harming daily, in the worst place mentally and material conditions-wise of my life, I wonder, how could anyone not k-ll themselves living like this? How could anyone willingly keep going?

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@mouse_trap_band We have a healthcare system?

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@MxlxSxntx That’s not how it works for me, it’s not like that at all

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I’m doing everything I can possibly think to do and it isn’t enough

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Horrific, pathetic, and depressing little life

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I’m sorry for making all of you read my bullshit, I don’t know why I keep posting it

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I caused all of this, I put myself in this place, it’s nobody else’s fault, but I can’t handle it, my head feels like it’s constantly being torn into, I don’t think this is ever going to end, I’m so fucking tired of being me

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Jesus fucking Christ I don’t want to keep doing this

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Will I ever stop wanting to d-e? Will I ever stop feeling this crushing weight? When does it end

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I am in fucking agony

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Blood on my air mattress

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I’m so tired of being me

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Everything I’ve ever done will amount to nothing

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@Outlet_Taster Not the time