Hihi~🐾
My names FluffiStuf and I'm new here. Well, not really new so to speak. I've been here a while, watching, observing, hoping to one day make my own little corner of this place home. I hope you take the time to read, and I hope its not too much oversharing. (≧﹏ ≦)
But if not, at least there's a tldr at the end.
I've thought of posting a lot before now, but anxiety is a hell of a thing and it's easy to wallow in your own misery and justify it to yourself. It's a misery that starts off small, like avoiding large events like concerts and conventions, and slowly over month / years it creeps until you stop going to the grocery or to see friends and family. Life becomes a drain of going to work, coming home, going to work, coming home, rinse and repeat.
I tried replacing my socialization with video games and even AI when I wanted to chat but just had to much anxiety. This let the creep inside, not the video games so much but the entire action of even withdrawing from online gaming and communities.
Now years later I have to take the steps to break out of that shell, talk to real people, find people to play games with again, stream like I always dreamed, and find a community that will take the time to learn my quirks and let me spread the love I have to share.
If you find my profile, I hope I bring some happiness, positivity, or a smile to your day.
TLDR; I have some pretty severe social anxiety that I am pushing through hard to unlock the person I used to be.
sorry for not responding to many dms today i promise im not ignoring anyone i just am just to foggy and having a hard time processing anything.
Works got me so mentally pooped imma go pass out way early. (≧﹏ ≦) zZz zZz zZz
I have ADHD. At work yesterday I led the project, fielded every question, and looked like the most organized person in the room. This morning I cannot find the keys I held 4 minutes ago and I am crying about it.
@Novaa11037@Rezeslv or heaven forbid letting the mask slip and exposing your friends to possibly empathizing and feeling your depression too, then making you feel bad for it.
@GummiSaiko@BerryVialVT yeah I noticed it as well. i figured id be just unlocking the ability to eventually boost posts but suddenly I was much more visible just by subbing.
as a person whos trying to build genuine connections before i am ready to debut, those posts semi-suck. i wanna meet streamers so when i stream i don't just have followers and collabs but others who i can talk to about the space, games, etc. ya'know friends.
This is gonna sound very very mean but I feel like all the vtuber “I want new vtuber friends!!” posts are more like “I want another creator to network with” and it would be so easy and not mean to just say that and be sincere…