I’ll find myself again, someone will be able to fall in love with me again. As much I pray it will be who I’m in love with, I have no expectations. All I need is time and a lot of self love. It’s truly time to focus on Alexandria and myself 💕
I don’t wanna be sad and depressed and stressed over situations I can not control anymore. I can’t live my life like this anymore. I need to find who I used to be, the calm girl who was naive and not so stubborn . The one who people COULD love and wanted to be around.
The car wreck really opened my eyes. Had the wheel not been turned, we could’ve been severely injured and possibly even dead. Somebody up there was watching over us. I know my daughter would’ve been ok but me and Kait didn’t have on seatbelts and we were going head on to that car
I had the biggest anxiety attack in forever, put my daughter in bed with me until I felt ok, decided to delete all social media and keep my phone constantly on DND bc I need time and space to .. fall in love with myself and my life again.
I’ve never had someone know me so well that they can just walk in my kitchen, look at one thing and say “you can tell you’ve let yourself go” “you can tell your mind has been some where else”
Damn .
Who am I kidding, you might not seem to love me but it’s the little things, those speak volumes. Even after everything, you did what would make me happy. It wasn’t great big things, just two simple things, and they meant the world to me.