Me crying in the middle of the night because I don't understand what I'm feeling.
Everything is built up,sadness,anger, and guilt everything feels so heavy.
I love a man I can RELY on.๐ One I donโt have to chase, remind, or beg to show up for me. A man who stands on his word. If he says he got it, he got it. If he says heโs coming through, he come through. Thatโs the kind of man I like. He donโt tell me where I stand, he shows me.
Depression is sleeping through the day in a dark room. Depression is ignoring calls & text from family & friends. depression is feeling lonely, but not wanting company. depression is a disease. Itโs called the silent killer for a reason. If youโre still here today, I love you.
Y'all wanna be toxic soooo bad. Meanwhile, I'm tryna kill every toxic trait within me. I don't wanna argue, be disrespectful, act cold, or question love.
I wanna be gentle, accountable, emotionally intelligent, supportive, and soft with my person.
Real love deserves real peace.
She doesn't take pictures of herself anymore, doesn't dress up just to feel pretty The spark she carried faded slowly now she just sits in silence...lost in her thoughts, watching time pass as if she's waiting for her old self to return... the one who used to love life a little more.
Iโm gonna get yelled at for saying this but a lot of women are single because they havenโt met a man whoโs better at being a man than they already are.
At this age??? Date to grow, date to learn and date to become a better person for yourself. If everything goes well, then marry. If it's toxic, end it. Never deprive your personal needs for the sake of being in a relationship because you can get a better one in the future.
Male loneliness epidemic?
No.
The real epidemic is the women who wanted a family and children in this lifetime and had no choice but to walk away from that dream because the men are too demonic, immature, narcissistic, self-centered and overall abusive, and so women chose their nervous systems, a peaceful life of solitude, and not perpetuating a family lineage of trauma and harm with men who refuse to grow or be better.
I'm grown enough to admit that due to the things I was put through in life, I'm a hard person to deal with sometimes. I overthink, worry, and can be hard to understand. I'm beyond territorial, and require a lot of patience. But I also know that I can love like no other.
learn to be alone. eat alone, sleep alone, vibe alone, heal alone. be so confident that you can bloom without opinions and approvals. and if you ever doubt yourself, always remember who you were and how far you've come.
She just wants her whole nervous system to finally rest. Sheโs begging for a chapter where her spirit can breathe, her mind can slow down, and life finally feels gentle again.
"You're single now, you can talk to whoever"
I'm actually loosing interest in dating, nobody is serious now. Everyone is looking for the thing that benefits them the most. People take you for granted and don't appreciate what you do for them. One second they love you, the next they forget who you are and what you ever had. No thank you.
Although I'm ok with being single, I can't wait to actually meet someone who's actually interested in me. The constant crave of wanting to talk, asking about my day, my feelings, sharing laughter & being heard is so rare nowadays. Nobody communicates anymore. Real is Rare. ๐
I CANT WAIT to experience love without trust issues & commitment issues & 3rd party situations & lack of integrity & sneaky link ups behind my back & not having to beg to be loved & treated right & heard & seen & reciprocation is mutual & Im loved correctly the first time around