"...But, in truth, I have wept too much! Dawns are heartbreaking.
Every moon is atrocious and every sun bitter.
Acrid love has swollen me with intoxicating torpor
O let my keel burst! O let me go into the sea!..."
―Arthur Rimbaud, from_The Drunken Poem_
“It was not delight, not wonder that arose among us, it was the peace of heaven. A thousand times have I said it to her and to myself: the most beautiful is also the most sacred. And such was everything in her. Like her singing, even so was her life.”
―Friedrich Hölderlin
“But is it really you
behind the pretenses
beyond dust and distances
beneath the salt and the siren
announcements and ancient
impurities and decays
that claim to be you.”
―W.S. Merwin
"Or shall I spread you over the pines
―suffering book of my love―
so you can learn about the song
the nightingale offers the dawn?”
―Federico García Lorca
"Name me…so that Love winged with a fan
Paints me there, lulling the fold, flute in hand,
Princess, name me the shepherd of your smiles.”
―Stéphane Mallarmé
“This blood cry, this blood that adorns
iris, now without pulse, slippery firebrand.
This weight—of the sea that batters me.
This scorpion that nests inside my chest.”
—Federico García Lorca
"Your knowing was your informant—wijdān.
Mine has been less articulate:
more like a sixteen-foot python that notices and does not strike—holding immense power in absolute stillness, not forcing what does not need to be forced..."
I've raised this beautiful noodle since it was a tiny baby; it has grown quite a bit since. Not sure of its gender, but it's a cross between a kingsnake and a milksnake.
You ask:
why this attraction
to madness?
Because grief carries
a medicine in it
that comfort does not.
Your sadness
has grown larger
than yourself.
I know this country.
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"...And the dīwāna
who has not changed,
who will not change,
who remains here
on the far side
of every threshold
you crossed in him—
waiting not for resolution,
but for what the Wheel
turns toward
when it turns..."